Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Weigh-In Results

Starting Weight: 220 lbs.
Last Week's (use term loosely) Weight: 186.8 lbs.
This Week's Weight: 184.2 lbs.
Change: -2.6 lbs.

Hey y'all (we don't y'all in Brooklyn, so I don't know what this opening greeting is about, lol.)

I woke up this lovely Tuesday morning after about 13 hours of sleep, peed, got on the scale and WHAM! I expected the 186.8 to be shining up at me as it has been for the past couple of days, but it did not. I was wearing pants, too, because I'm lazy AND Aunt Flo has come to pay her monthly visit. So yay me! I think this is due in part to the insane amount of fluids I drank yesterday. Literally, I drank about ten cups of tea and five bottles of water because when you are sick, you must replenish fluids. I'm also going to call my mom and ask her to get me some Gatorade from the outside world, because I need some electrolytes, badly. My body feels like hell.

On a good note, I have lost 35.8 lbs, which means that I am less than 10 pounds away from being half way through to my goal weight!

Now for some TMI, I figured out today that I most likely don't have the flu. First off, I haven't had a fever, but that's not necessarily a sure sign. I had a very non-productive cough, which, along with all my other symptoms, pointed to flu. This morning, while brushing my teeth, let's just say that my cough became rather productive. My throat feels much better and I am now taking some German medicine, drinking a gigantic cup of tea and doing some work. My boss, who has been an angel lately, is letting me work from home for the next few days and so I'm only taking a break to download some music, post about my loss and read a few other blogs.

Will post again later :)

Monday, December 27, 2010

Sick :(

So, today I was sick. The good thing is that I hardly made it to 1000 calories, because I felt like crap. The bad news is that I haven't exercised yet. I have a headache, but I think that's from too much screen time so, while the treadmill may not be happening, I will get up and do strengthening with the band. It's the least I can do. It doesn't help that Aunt Flo is about to show (haha I rhymed), which is making me cranky and headache-y as well. But anyway, I am going to do the resistance exercises at 10:00.

In other news, I got my new iPod and I've been downloading music all day. Anybody have any suggestions? I have a very varied taste in music, as in, I love almost every genre. The only thing I find it hard to get into is metal and screaming music. I'm not going to work again tomorrow, because I'm feeling ill and it's snowpocalypse outside. My poor mother had to walk to work because there was no getting the car out and she has patients that need insulin, so yeah.

Also, I'm thinking of dying my hair this color: http://images2.fanpop.com/image/photos/10700000/Kathryn-3-kathryn-prescott-10793406-429-352.jpg ! But I'm going to do it when I leave for school because if I do it at home, my parents very well might flip a shit, lol.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

I have been....

Really, really bad. I don't know what's happened to me this past week, but I cannot seem to get myself back into the swing of dieting and it's starting to scare me. I have not gained any weight but I haven't lost any, which is a problem. I'm thinking that it's partially because I've been slacking on the blogging because I am so ridiculously busy. I'm almost never home, between work and seeing my friends.

But this is it. NO more excuses. I have come this far and I'm not going to give up at 187 pounds. I'm almost halfway through and yes, it gets harder as I go along, but there are no excuses. And so, I am back on the bandwagon and starting tomorrow morning (since I'm done eating for the day), every calorie that enters my mouth is recorded on this here blog and I will not go 1 over 1200. The end. No more excuses. The holiday season is nearly over and even if I still have New Year's and birthdays left, it doesn't matter.

It is snowing buckets here in Brooklyn, so I will be home all day, but I am going to go on the treadmill and also get in a strengthening workout. Hold me to it, people!

Hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Whoever created 7:15AM.....

Should be shot. Anything before 8AM is considered an ungodly hour to me. Except this morning, I did something I have rarely done before. Usually, I convince myself that I can stay asleep another 15 minutes. I literally get up to turn off my alarm and set it 15 minutes later (proving that I can semi-function) and then throw myself back into bed. And I do this about 5 times, until I've successfully made myself late. Today, I woke up and the voice was in my head saying: "You have 15 minutes, Raych. Just do it. Come on." NO! I got up, I turned off the alarm, I drank a sip of Vitamin Water and I grabbed my laptop to read the morning news.

In the news, there was something good! The bullshit that is 'Don't Ask, Don't Tell' has finally been repealed! Thank you, US Government, for doing something useful for the first time in a couple of years or so! Now, I'm not gay and I have quite a few gay guy friends that I love dearly, but wouldn't last a week in any boot camp. But this is historic! This is the kind of thing that will move the LGBT rights movement waaaay forward and shows that it isn't all for nothing. For me, it's not the actual policy (like I said, I don't know anyone who's really affected by it). It's the idea of it. The military accepting gay men and women. That's something, huh?
Here's the article I woke up to: http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2010/12/18/AR2010121803502.html?wprss=rss_print
Of course, the policy will take some time to actually put into place, but it's been signed, by the Senate majority and by Obama. So, woohoo, something to celebrate! In other news, I'm pretty sure North Korea's about to bomb the shit out of everyone, so stay tuned for that.

Anyway, the reason I am up at this ungodly hour is that I've decided to go to the gym before work starts. They have an elliptical there and I've really been itching to get on one, so at 8:10, I am out the door and ready to pump some iron!!!!!....err, well, not really, but the enthusiasm is still there!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Weigh-In and a Quickie

Starting Weight: 220
Last Week's Weight: 187
This Week's Weight: 186.8

That's pretty pathetic, I'm not going to lie. Then again, I had a huge loss last week and was not able to do much calorie counting this week. But still. Excuses will not get me to where I want to be. This week has been a whirlwind that I wish I could sum into one blog post, but I can't. Finals week is hard. I had to delete my Facebook again, because here's what's going on until Tuesday.

Today- Running, studying (!!), niece's birthday party
Tomorrow- Running, work, studying
Monday- X-rays, sociology exam, doctor's appointment
Tuesday- History exam, English exam, history paper due

I still have not started this history paper. I did some research, but honestly, I'm going to relax and just do it. This is not so important. None of these classes go into my GPA. I just need to do semi-well. I don't need A's! The only thing I needed to worry about was chemistry, but that's a whole different story. Forget about that.

The running is going pretty well. I've decided to start the C25K program, not because it will necessarily make me run 5K, but because it's a good way to get to running. If by the end of it, I can run a 5K, all the better. To tell the truth, my running is more like jogging than it is running and I eventually start limping, but whatever. I am doing my best. We'll see what my doctor says on Monday. Hopefully nothing has gotten messed up in the past 2 months, right?

Here are some photos from yesterday. We got bored during work, lol.

I don't know why I thought the fire hose was important, lol. But I look thinner in this picture than in the other ones, so I liked it.

This is one of the maintenance people at the Y! I love him, because he is taller than me and I look great in pictures next to him, lmao. He's also a real cool guy.

This is another maintenance guy. His name is Jocko and he's been here longer than anyone I know. In fact, I think they may have built the place around him, lol.

This is me in deep conversation with my best friend, while the kids are watching Home Alone 2. Note to self: Don't stand next to him. It's the only picture where I look really fat, because he's much smaller than me. To be fair, I was standing in front of him in this picture, but that doesn't make much difference.

Oh, and here's a picture of me and my nephew from Thanksgiving.
Isn't he the most adorable?!?!?!

Alrighty, off to study!!!!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Quick update - Sorry!

Hey everyone! So, I'm currently sitting on the library, doing research for my paper on Jews in America before and after the Holocaust. It's a 10-12 page paper that I have NO idea how to start. And it's due December 21st. We'll see how I do this week and I might ask for an extension, because I still have four finals. I finally finished my paper on obesity.

BTW--If you would like to see my paper on obesity, leave your email in the comments section! It's pretty interesting. It's from a sociology standpoint, so no advice or anything here (mostly because I'm not qualified to give out any advice yet, lol. I'm still fat). Mostly just my opinions on why we all of a sudden have an obesity epidemic, when people in other countries are starving.

Here's a breakdown of my weekend. Friday, I didn't do anything except, I RAN! It was awesome. I mean, mostly, it was a pathetic jog. But I enjoyed it anyway. Saturday morning, I went to get a mani/pedi and then I went to see Les Miserables at my old high school. It was so nice seeing my babies. They're all seniors now, which is making me feel very, very elderly. The show was great and I was like a proud mama! I didn't eat all day and then went to Chinese and had steamed chicken, broccoli and a cup of brown rice. I also had a miso soup and 1/4 of a pineapple. Then, I studied. Yesterday, I went to work in the morning, which was pretty good except I'm really disappointed in how much TV kids watch. It's really rotting their brains. They can't use their imaginations anymore--or maybe they don't want to. Half of them are crap readers. Anyway, then I went home and my brother, sister-in-law and adorable nephew came over. He's 11 months now and the sunshine of my life, basically. He's so sweet and he's always attached to me, which I love.

My best friend's little brother is in a little trouble. This is the same best friend with the family issues. He got jumped on Saturday night, but luckily, his friend was with him and didn't let anything happen. But they threatened to get him in school. Why? Because he broke up with his girlfriend, who is clearly psychotic. Mind you, these kids are FIFTEEN. I'm going to come on later and rant about this, because I just don't have the time or energy right now.

Got on the scale after the weekend and it was 187.4, which I don't count as anything. I need to, erm, use the bathroom. So I may be down to 187.4. I don't count +.4 as a gain, within 2 days. My weigh-in day is Friday, so yeah.

Today, I'm doing research until 3:30, then I have class from 3:40-4:55. Then, I'm going to travel to work and I'm working until 7:30. Then, going home and studying. Today is my last day of class, but I have a review tomorrow, a final Wednesday, a final Monday and two finals on Tuesday. And at some point, I'll have to return all the books that I'm going to take out today.

This morning I had 2 slices of whole wheat bread with a tbsp of reduced fat peanut butter and a quarter of a banana. I'm full, I feel great and I'm off to find books!

Also, I got a couple of awards (2 in one weekend, when I don't think I've ever received any!!!) so thank you all so much for those! I will put those in details when I have time. Finals week is a killer.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Weigh-In Results and Some Fun Facts!

Starting Weight: 220
Last Week's Weight: 189.4
This Week's Weight: 187.0

Woohooo, 2.4 pounds, never to come back again! Very exciting, considering the last time I weighed myself was actually Monday instead of Friday/Saturday (I've decided either Friday or Saturday is fine for a weigh-in, because I will definitely remember one of those days, lol). Starting tomorrow, I plan to eat much more fruits and vegetables because I know they're good for me and a good loss without them does not mean I should take them out. It means I didn't have time to eat anything else either, so I got lucky. Despite the fact that I didn't eat enough fruits and veggies, my calories were super low this week, which explains the big loss. And yes, for me, 2.4 pounds is a big loss. I'm under 190 pounds. (omg I love saying that). And my 2.4 pound loss is a 1.27% loss for the week. I'm no biggest loser, but I'm going to go ahead and say that it's a good accomplishment. I've lost 33 lbs so far, 18 of which are accounted for on this blog, so while I've had the blog (about 11 weeks), I've lost 1.6 pounds or so a week. 

Lost a follower today. Ehh, you win some, you lose some, I guess. I'm not doing this for anyone but myself. I'm not doing this for the praise or anything else. It is wonderful to hear that people are impressed by me once every few weeks, but that's not why I'm doing this. And if someone (I have yet to figure out who I lost, lol) doesn't like what I'm doing? I still wish them all the best and peace be the journey and all that crap.

When I first started this journey, I was 61 pounds away from the borderline of a "normal" weight, 24.9, according to the BMI scale, which is 159 pounds for me. Today, I am 28 pounds away from that goal, which means that I am more than halfway through to being normal. Damn, that feels good.

Again, I don't have much time to write, so I hope you all enjoy your weekends and I'll see you on the other side!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My body amazed me today.

I can't really do a long post because the next week and a half are dedicated to finals and papers, but I've been doing fine. Today, I ordered food at work. A soup and a wrap. I ate the soup and could only finish half the wrap. Literally, my body wouldn't let me eat more. And I hadn't eaten since breakfast! It's so weird, I didn't realize it before. I used to be able to eat a soup, a wrap, some curly fries and a crepe from that place. And that was after eating 2 meals already. My body amazed me today. I liked it.

I also wore leggings and a t-shirt and people told me I looked "hot". I've never been told that before. Especially in a crappy t-shirt from junior high school gym and leggings from the Gap, looking like a mess. I liked that too. Generally good mood, but very very stressed out.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Fatty McFatterson Strikes Again...

Today, I was not very good. I freely admit that. While I didn't go over calorie limit, I still didn't eat well and that's just as bad as going over 1200 calories.
Here's my total food journal for the day....

1 Skinny Cow Ice cream bar: 140 calories
1 slice low cal bread: 40 calories
1 tsp Taramosalata: 30 calories
1 scoop tuna salad: 159 calories
Lettuce, tomato, cucumber, red pepper, carrot: 40 calories
1 bag trail mix: 260 calories (wtf was I thinking...)
1/2 cup risotto: 143 calories
1 oz chicken: 95 calories
15 reduced fat cheez-its: 65 calories

Total: 972 calories
Left: 228 calories

I don't know what's going on with me. I need to do better than this. I feel so fat all the time and I just want it to be over. I keep thinking of how great next summer in Europe and then at my job is going to be when I'm thin and fit and going to the gym and healthy. And then I do stupid shit like eat an entire bag of trail mix! I mean, what's up with that? I don't know. I'm not in the mood. I need to go study. I have a schedule set out for Wednesday-Sunday, because I don't think I'll get through it without a schedule.

Last night...

So, last night, I stayed up very, very, very late. As in until 3:30am,  because I have too much work and not enough time to do it. Let's review.

History: 10-12 page paper due December 30th (haven't started to research), an exam that I need to study for on December 21st (haven't started) and readings that I need to finish (many of them I have started and have not finished)

Sociology: 5 page paper due December 13th (I started last night, I have 1 paragraph), readings to finish (most of them are done, just a few are still in the air) and an exam I need to study for December 20th (haven't started)

Chemistry: 3.5 chapters to catch up on, quiz I need to study for Thursday (haven't started), lab quiz Thursday (haven't started), exam to study for on December 15th that I REALLY need to do amazing on in order to get an A.

English: WAAAY too many stories to catch up on (our professor changed the format of the final on us last minute and I now need to do all the readings I missed), an exam to study for December 21st (have not started).

I've also gone back to work, so I have no time to myself and I end up studying really late. I even deactivated my facebook! So, I stayed up until 2, took a "nap" where I really just twisted and turned for half an hour, got up, drank a huuuuuge mug of strong coffee on an empty stomach, wrote a paragraph of my paper and BAM! I was so nauseous, I thought I was going to puke right then and there. It was absolutely horrid. So I went to sleep for fear that I was going to vomit on my laptop. Had to wake up at 7:30, because there were people coming to fix my broken heater, went into the other room and slept like a baby, very comfortably, for four hours. Then, I woke up, got on the scale. 187.6, lol. I guess that's what eating 600 calories in a day will do to you when you are up for ridiculous hours and do a heck of a lot of walking. Now, I'm getting ready for school. Mom is driving me. Talk to you all later! Will try to eat more today.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Weird eating, good news and some feelings crap.

Last night, I had 2 weird dreams. I had one dream that I could run. That one was nice. Then I had a dream that I ate an entire chocolate bar in one sitting and felt really guilty, until I woke up and it didn't happen. Today was an interesting day in terms of eating. I never did get to make that egg white omelette.

Food Journal
1 ice cream: 140 cals
1 coffee: 30 cals
2 lollipops: 51 cals
1 apple: 80 cals
1 fruit roll-up: 50 cals
5 stuffed grape leaves: 193 cals
1 tsp low cal greek yogurt: 3 cals
1 slice low-cal bread: 40 cals
Total: 587 calories

You see what I mean by interesting? And I literally just ate the stuffed grape leaves, so until 9:00, I had only had 351 calories for the day. And the strangest part is that I did not do this on purpose and that I felt fine. I was hardly even hungry until I got into the car. I went to my 3:40 class, after waiting for the bus for half an hour and arrived at around 4:00, because the bus was extremely late, even more than I had accounted for (I usually account for a 15 minute wait). My sociology professor didn't seem to mind. He smiled when I walked in and appreciated all the answers that I gave, which was very nice. After sociology was over, I went straight to work where I found out that  I HAVE THE JOB THAT I WANTED FOR THE SUMMER. The job is called "division leader" and I basically have a division all to myself (or to share with an extra person, depending on the size of it). I have wanted this job for TWO YEARS and I finally got it. So, so excited.

This is what I was wearing today...It was really simple, but I liked it, so I took a picture. Also, today, I called myself fat and my mom said "You're not fat anymore. I look at you and it's like seeing a different person" which was very nice. I'm still fat, but I'm on the way down and it's nice to know that it shows, even if I can't quite see it.
It's just jeans, a tucked in shirt and a cardigan. I liked my hair today, too. Woke up like that, ha! I wish you could see my makeup. I finally got my 200 lb goal thing and got new lipstick and blue mascara!

I've been a little sad today, because one of my best friends, my only guy best friend, is going through a really tough time with his abusive dad. I was surprised when he talked to me about it yesterday, because usually, I have to pry for information. He's not the sharing type. But he vented to me yesterday about what's going on with his family and I couldn't fall asleep last night. I feel horrible, because there's nothing that I can do but listen to him vent. I know his brother and sister and am very close with his brother, who's 15. I love him, I love his brother and I love the little that I know of his baby sister. I've never met his parents, but from what I've heard from him, his  mom is sweet and his dad is...I can't say he's all bad. I'm sure that he's a good father sometimes, but he comes from a different background, where it's okay to hit your wife and your kids when things don't go your way. Anyway, I don't want to go into details in case somebody that I know IRL ever reads this, but I'm heartbroken. I would do anything that I could to help him, because I love the kid with all my heart, but there's nothing I can do and I feel pretty damn helpless.

Weigh-In and Chanukkah Blessings

Starting Weight: 220
Last Week's Weight: 189.4
This Week's Weight: 189.4

Well, on one hand, no news is good news. On the other hand, I was really enjoying not counting calories but it looks like I'm going to have to go back. The actual good news, though, is that I maintained for an entire week! What this means, I think, is that when I get down to whatever weight it is that I get down to (*cough*130*cough*), that I will be able to maintain. This weekend, I had a work party, a surprise party and a volunteer party (yesterday) and I managed to gain nothing. Looking back at my weekend, I really don't see myself having eaten more than 1500 calories a day. Ehh, anyway. I'm back to 1000-1200 calories a day and hopefully I'll see a loss next week.
This morning I was craving ice cream for breakfast. I mean, craving and I kept telling myself "No, no, no" but no matter what I did, ice cream was the only thing that I wanted to eat. So, I thought about it. I have these 140 calories ice cream things in my fridge. I can eat one, eat an egg white omelette and still stay under 300 calories for the meal, sooooo what's the problem? Those things are sugar free. The only thing I'll be eating is extra carbs, but they are replacing the carbs that would usually come out of the two pieces of whole wheat toast that I have with my egg whites. So, what the heck. I ate my ice cream and I'm off to make an omelette. Judge me if you must. Allan, I'm talkin' to you.

Now, I realized today, that my dad taught me the wrong way to light the Chanukkah candles! I was lighting them from right to left, the way that one reads in Hebrew. But you're supposed to be lighting the newest one first so from left to right! Damn. Well, the good news is that there are 3 nights of Chanukkah left and that now I know how. Also, I'm writing the blessings down here because I seem to forget them every year. I have the first part (the blessing over candles) memorized, but the second part is always lost on me.

Blessing over candles
Barukh atah Adonoi, Eloheinu, melekh, ha'olam
asher kidishanu b'mitz'votav v'tzivanu
l'hadlik neir shel Chanukkah (Amein)

Blessing for Chanukkah
Barukh atah Adonoi, Eloheinu, melekh, ha'olam
she'asah nisim la'avoteinu bayamim haheim baziman hazeh. (Amein)

Shehecheyanu (first night only)
Barukh atah Adonoi, Eloheinu, melekh, ha'olam
shehecheyanu v'kiyimanu, v'higi'anu laz'man hazeh (Amein)

Translation, if anyone is curious:

Blessed are you, Lord, our G-d, sovereign of the universe
Who has sanctified us with His commandments and commanded us
to light the lights of Chanukkah (Amen)

Blessed are you, Lord, our G-d, sovereign of the universe
Who performed miracles for our ancestors in those day at this time (Amen)

Blessed are you, Lord, our G-d, sovereign of the universe
Who has kept us alive, sustained us, and enabled us to reach this season (Amen)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Matisyahu Concert and Pics from Tonight & Last Night

I don't know if any of you know who Matisyahu is. He's a Orthodox Jew who is a reggae singer. He is AMAZING. His concert was honestly like a religious experience. Now, I just want to go to Israel really badly. Before, I kind of didn't want to go, because I was in a bad mood, but BOY am I glad I went. It was general admission, we came late, but somehow we ended up standing a foot away from him. When he crowd surfed he literally landed right on top of us. That's how close we were. Here's a pic of me that I took before I left of what I was wearing. Kind of blurry because it's on my cell phone, but fine anyway.

And here is a picture of how close we were!! I used no zoom on this. I just pointed the cell phone. Amazing.
I know you can't see anything cause it's so blurry but that's him. My goodness, I love him.

And here's a few from last night that were posted on zee Facebook.
Here's one of my face which I liked.
Almost no face fat! :)

Me and the birthday girl!

A group pic where you can see my leg in those 10-11 jeans that I just bought!

Me, the birthday girl and my really good friend's little brother!

That's all for now. I am beyond exhausted because we were standing for four hours. My legs are so sore, I'm going to drink some water and go to bed. Good night, all!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

This Is What I Call a Weekend!

Hey everyone. Yesterday was such a long day, but also a great one. First of all, here is my food journal.

2 waffles

1 turkey burger (no bun)
1 slice green pepper
1/2 tomato
2 slices cucumber
1 cup chicken noodle soup
4 sesame sticks
Cottage cheese

Few pieces steamed chicken
Few pieces steamed shrimp
1 cup rice
2 slices pineapple
1/2 cupcake (my mistake of the day)

I walked my 3.5 miles and here are the pictures from it. They're on my cell phone, but, you know, they're fine. I saw some really awesome stuff.

This is 70 Willow Street. Truman Capote lived in the basement of this house in the late 50's and early 60's. Here, he wrote "In Cold Blood" and "Breakfast at Tiffany's"

This is a statue of Henry Ward Beecher, the famous abolitionist preacher, at Plymouth Church of Pilgrims, which is still a working church. I went inside to an absolutely charming portrait. Next to him is a stone thing of Abraham Lincoln, because he sat for a service here, as did Mark Twain, Charles Dickens and Walt Whitman.

This is a plaque from a seriously old house that I passed by.

This is just one of the many wonderful views from the Brooklyn Promenade. I walked it twice, because it's just that amazing. I wanted to take pictures of everything, lol.

This is Grace Court Alley. It used to be home to a bunch of stables, but now it's just an alley. This entire place just doesn't feel like Brooklyn, which I love.

This is 31 Grace Ct. Arthur Miller and W.E.B. Dubois lived here (at different times, obviously)

A menorah at the edge of Grace Ct, I think, right in front of the Promenade! I love seeing Jewish things around.

On the way to get some grub, this is what I saw. I was really happy, lol. It's so cute!

This was the beginning of my lunch. This picture deceives, because the chicken soup was actually really small. I did not eat the crackers. I was sooo cold, though, so I needed the soup.

After that, I ordered a low-cal turkey burger. What you see there is a large piece of lettuce, a turkey burger, some cottage cheese, a slice of green pepper, a few tomatoes and cucumbers and four sesame sticks. I finished the vegetables and the sesame sticks. I left some of the turkey burger and the cottage cheese, though, because I was full. After that, I had some coffee and it was time to take the train back.

But first I went to CVS and got myself a Cosmo, a random book and a card for my friend. The card had 2 poodles in sunglasses and dresses and on the inside it said "Let's celebrate your birthday like the fabulous bitches we are!"

So, I went home, rested my achy feet, showered, put on a nice outfit and went out again to my very good friend's surprise birthday party at a new Thai place called Lotus. I did not eat in between these events. There, I ate a few appetizers, but really, I don't remember what they are and I didn't realize I was eating them as I was doing it. Then, I ordered pineapple pilaf, which was amazing. It was literally a hollowed out pineapple with rice, steamed chicken, steamed shrimp and some pineapple cubes. Amazing. It seemed like a lot, because it was so huge, but the pineapple wasn't totally hollowed out, so it really wasn't that large. The girl who planned the party also bought cupcakes from Crumbs (omg. so. amazing) and I couldn't pass it up, so I ate half. I wore my 10-11 jeans last night and they were really tight, but I wore a loose shirt, so I pulled it off. Once the girl puts up pictures on Facebook, I'll put one or two on here.

This morning, I ate two waffles and a tablespoon of calorie-free jelly. I went to visit my sick best friend. She's just got a really bad cold, but she gave me her ticket to the Matisyahu concert for tomorrow! He's basically this religious Jew that's also a rapper and I wanted to go to the concert so bad, but it was sold out. She's not feeling well, so she gave me her ticket. I feel bad that she's not going, but happy that I'm going. I brought her a little section of Cosmo I thought she would enjoy and this little South African boxing glove that I bought in a grocery store, randomly. She LOVES South Africa, lol. It's pretty funny. She went there over the summer and she was obsessed with it. After that, I went to work and that ended badly. 3 chocolate kisses, a tiny piece of chocolate cake and a slice of whole wheat bread with a spoonful of tuna. Starting right now, NO MORE cheating. I know I don't premeditate it and that's good, but just because it's not cheating that I mean to do doesn't mean it's ok. So, starting right now, I am back on the calorie-counting and I am done, done, done with cheating. I didn't get on the scale this morning, because I was in a rush, so I'll do it tomorrow, but it ain't gonna be pretty. I'm better than this.

My brother, sister-in-law and nephew were going to go to Florida this morning with my sister-in-law's parents, but my nephew got sick with a 104 degree fever!!! The doctor prescribed some antibiotics, but they're not going now. We have their dog, so we eventually have to bring that thing back. I'm a little relieved about the dog, because he's a bulldog so he drools a lot and he's also insane (but absolutely adorable), but I feel so terrible that they're not going on vacation. :(

That's all. Off to do some exercise with my resistance band and get ready for Matisyahu! Tomorrow, I'm doing 2 miles on my treadmill.

UPDATE: Resistance Band toning
20 alternating chest presses, right arm
20 alternating chest presses, left arm
20 lat pulls right arm
20 lat pulls left arm
20 rear delt flies
20 one-arm rear flies, left
20 one-arm rear flies, left
20 bicep curls
20 overhead presses
I REALLY felt it today. My arms are still sore from Thursday. Damn, I'm weak.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Food & Exercise Journal

2 waffles with peanut butter and 1/2 a banana

15 spinach artichoke dip chips (I know, I know)
1 cookie (Again, bad mistake. It's over. Beating myself up is over. No more.)
A lot of salad with just lettuce, broccoli and tomato
1 oz. grilled chicken
1 Skinny Cow ice cream

1 piece of fish (tilapia, I think)
1/2 roasted potato
Radish salad
1 piece cake

With the resistance band...

15 alternating chest press (each arm)
15 lat pulls
15 rear delt flies
15 one-arm rear flies, each side
15 overhead presses
15 tricep extensions, each side
15 bicep curls

I could've done better but this day is over and I tried to make up for it with the strength exercise that I've never done before. Exercise? There needs to be more of it. I may go on the Wii Fit after I finalize my plans for tomorrow.
5 mile walk! I'm post up my route after I do it. No creepers, lol :)

Self Control. Re-Evaluating My Choices Today.

I just did something stupid, so I immediately went to the computer lab so I could write about it. This morning, I had a decent breakfast. 2 waffles, peanut butter and half a banana. Nothing out of the ordinary. Then, I went to lab (where I got an 82.5 on my chem test. ew) and then I went to Hillel. First, I had a little bit of coffee. No big deal. There were donuts and cupcakes, but I didn't touch them. Then I went to a table outside where we were handing out pamphlets on LGBTQ Rights in the Middle East (Israel is the only one that supports them) and while we were there, there were some lovely cookies and chips. I drank some hot chocolate (highly diluted), which wasn't a big deal because I almost never have any real sugar that doesn't come from fruit and I ate a small cookie, which was bad. But the spinach and artichoke chips. I was so freezing cold (it's like 30 degrees and I'm standing outside with no gloves yelling to people to stop by our table) and they were so good. I must've eaten, like, fifteen of them. And I'm disappointed in myself, because I was supposed to be great today! I have a party tonight.

So, here's my plan. I'm not eating until the restaurant at 6:30. Then, I am going to the restaurant and eating salad and some kind of fish. I will not drink anything but water and diet coke. And when I get home, I will go on the treadmill. Tomorrow is my first 4-5 mile walk. Very excited, but very nervous. I haven't walked that much since before I broke my ankle. You will all know how it goes tomorrow night!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Food/Exercise Journal...Urgh Hanukkah

Happy Hanukkah to all of my Jews! I know there aren't many of you out there in the land of the blog, but you exist! Tonight, we had Hanukkah dinner, but the whole day just wasn't that great eating wise. Here's what happened. And tomorrow, I am LOADING up on veggies and fruits and staying away from carbs as much as possible.

Wheat bagel, hollowed out
2 egg whites
Sprinkle of skim mozzarella
1 banana

1 bite kibbe (these small Jewish roll things with meat inside- more meat than dough thankfully)

4 turkey meatballs with sauce
1 slice 40 cal bread
1 bowl pineapple
1 Skinny Cow ice cream

Dinner (here's where I go awry)
2 helpings of salad (just lettuce, cherry tomato, strawberry, broccoli and a bit of olive oil)
2 kibbe
2 pieces of grilled chicken (about 2 oz)
1/2 of a potato latkes

Pretty bad. Tomorrow will be a better day. Except I'm going to a work party, but tomorrow will be better anyway. Work parties and holidays don't scare me one bit!

Progress Pics and December Goals

First thing's first. I posted some progress pictures, so if you click on that little tab up there, you will find them. Truthfully, after 30 pounds, I don't see a difference. But I know there has to be one and the scale is not an evil source of trickery. It may not show all that much after 30 pounds but my jeans are looser, my face is slimmer and people are constantly telling me I lost weight. And I know they're not telling me this to appease me because no one other than all of you in blogland and my parents knows that I am trying very hard to lose weight. Still, let me know what you guys think. Maybe there's something I'm missing in those pictures.

With that, my December goals!

1. Weigh under 180 lbs. by December 31st. Fairly simple. I'm 189.4 as of yesterday and in 4 weeks and some change, I don't think it's crazy to have lost a little more than 9 pounds. I didn't hit it last month, but this month, I can actually do some serious walking, because I'm not limping. I'm also getting pretty good at this cooking thing I've been doing, lol. This will be hard, because there's Christmas, New Year's, birthdays, etc. But that's not going to stop me :)
2. Get the damn room clean. Same as last time. I need to get that thing clean. Before and after photos to follow.
3. Walk 20 miles by December 31st. This may not seem like a lot to many of you, BUT I am recovering from a broken ankle. I plan on doing a 5 mile walk every Friday. Walk, not jog, not run (because I can't). If I don't do 5 miles on a Friday, then I will walk off whatever I've missed on the treadmill. The walking that I do to and from the bus and on a daily basis and everything is bs- it won't get me anywhere. I need to count it. First 5 mile walk this Friday! I'm in the midst of mapping out a path on Google Maps in Brooklyn Heights, a neighborhood I have never actually been in for too long that is historically relevant. I'm going to see if I can find my camera charger by then. Let's hope.
4. Blog at least 6 times a week. No need for explanation, you get it.
5. Get on the Wii Fit 3 times a week for at least a half hour. Also self-explanatory. It is not the best exercise, but it is movement and movement I need. I think a chunk of the reason that I don't see any improvement in myself is because I'm not moving. It's hard to cut inches off when you don't move. So here's hoping for some improvement by December 31st!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

November Goals

1. Lose 10 pounds (leaving me at 186.6 lbs.) by Tuesday, November 30th.
Nope. I am at 189.4, but I think that 10 pounds was mildly unrealistic.
2. Burn 500 calories a week on the Wii Fit. 
Yes and no. Technically, I was supposed to burn 2000 calories this month and I know I've burned more than that on the Wii Fit, but it may not have been split into four weeks.
3. Take a 10 minute walk 3 times a week. 
4. Lose the limp! 
5. Blog at least 6 times a week. 
There was one week where I only blogged 3 times, but I blogged enough in the other 3 weeks to make up for that.
6. Fit into "the dress"
SUCCESSFUL...even if I did almost suffocate7. Get my damn room clean. 
I am nowhere near done with this thing. I started, but it is not by any means "clean"

Next month's goals are coming up either later tonight, after some work has been completed or tomorrow!

Weigh-in and a quickie before class

Starting Weight: 220
Last Weight: 191.2
Today's Weight: 189.4

So, I lost 1.8 lbs, which is great because it was Thanksgiving. That and the week before Thanksgiving, I was getting 194.5 or something like that in between weigh-ins? My weigh-ins have been pretty irregular again, so I am going back to Saturday. I will weigh-in again this Saturday and then try to keep to my Saturday schedule. I'm pretty happy with that loss, even though it means that I officially didn't reach my monthly goal. About 3 pounds off. On October 30th, I was 196.6 and today, I am 189.4. 7.2 lbs in a month. My goal was 186.6, so I'm about 3 pounds off. Not great, but I lost 7.2 pounds in a month where I was plateauing for a good 2 weeks! So, anyway, next month will be better. Either tonight or tomorrow, I will do a review of all my goals (I didn't do that great....lol) and make new goals for December, keeping in mind what is realistic and what is necessary.

Off to class now. Post again later, most likely.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Some news and some rants

So, first of all, I made the conscious decision today not to count calories for a week, because here is what I have been doing as of lately. If I am at 700 calories for the day, I do not pay attention to how full or how hungry I am. I tell myself that I should be hungry and so I finish off with at least 300 more calories, some days 500. By seeing how few calories I've ingested, I make myself hungry. And I've come to the conclusion that this is stupid. Here's the math, real quick. My BMR, or Basal Metabolic Rate is 1716 calories a day. That is the amount of calories that I would burn if I lay in bed all day. Now, I don't just sit all day. But, I can't really exercise yet either because of my ankle. I do as much walking as I can, but it's not much. So, let's say it's 2000 calories a day, for shits and giggles. That means, I would need to eat 2000 calories a day in order to maintain and anything less than that is a loss. 1000 calories a day should mean a 2 lb loss and 1500 calories a day should mean a 1 lb loss. If you look at my little bar to the side, there is no way I am losing 2 lbs or 1 lb a week. So I must be doing something wrong, here. I should be losing more weight than I am.

But here's the thing. A calorie is not just a calorie. Processed food will make you fat. Even if McDonald's fits into your plan of action, it will still make you fat. And vegetables will make you skinny. If you eat 1500 calories a day with more vegetables and lean proteins and less processed foods and candy bars, as opposed to the other way around, my theory (and it's supported by many) is that you will not see the same results. The Biggest Loser tells you this and every nutritionist tells you this. When I tell myself I have 1000 calories, I don't eat as many fruits and vegetables for fear that they have too many calories. An apple has as many calories as a few pretzel sticks and sometimes, I want the pretzel sticks more. By forgetting about how many calories I should eat and listening to my body, I find that I consume way more fruits and vegetables and will most likely lose more. How am I going to do this? A scientific test. It's not very scientific because I am both the control and the variable and there's no proof that this will work for anyone but me. But hell, I am doing this for me, right? So I will try this for a week and see how I feel/how the scale feels.

Note: This does not mean that I am eating everything that comes to mind. I am being watchful and mindful and the calories are still there somewhere in the back of my head, almost on auto-pilot. As you will see in my food journal below, I'm still making healthy choices. I'm just doing it differently. We'll see what happens.

You think that was the rant? HAHA, no. Here's the thing. I've seen a lot of people rag on Allan and I never understood why. I mean, the guy has lost tons and tons of weight! Why are people ragging on his plan? I do not, in any way, follow Allan's plan. I eat meat, I didn't start off with liquids, I like to change things up, etc. But it doesn't annoy me in any way that we are different. I have absolutely no problem reading Allan's posts every day. In fact, I enjoy them! While I disagree with him often, I agree with his basic fundamental, which is the fact that weight loss is no joke! You can't just dilly dally, eat McDonald's plus dessert and call it a day. Weight loss is difficult. If it wasn't, we wouldn't be suffering an obesity epidemic! So, please, guys. If you don't agree with him, that's all fine and dandy, but don't put him down like he has no idea what he's talking about. Clearly, he has an idea or two. And if they don't work for you or you can't handle it (I am a part of the latter and I freely admit it), then read, agree/disagree and move on. Or if it bothers you so much, then don't read! I mean, come on, people. This is a little bit ridiculous now. Allan may be harsh sometimes, but he's no Diet Demon. He's helping plenty of people lose weight, he's a good guy. End Rant 1. Onto Rant 2.

Most of you people that I follow are 300+ pounds. Some are 250, some are 150, but most of the ones I follow are over 300 pounds. If you do the math, you can eat 2000 calories a day and lose TONS of weight, as long as you're not only eating processed foods and at least attempting to make healthy choices. 2000 calories in the land of Rachel is a feast! I have been eating less than 1200 calories a day, usually less than 1000. 2000 calories. I mean, damn! That's a lot of food. You could have tons of chicken, tons of fruit, a bunch of sugar free cookies, maybe some lean beef and you could cheat and you could STILL lose weight. So wtf is the problem?

I am 192 pounds. In the land of the blog, we call that "onederland". People dream of being this size. And I also stand at 5'7"-5'8", so I'm not short by any means. And yet, I am losing weight faster than people that are over 100 pounds heavier than me. It's no secret that the less you weigh, the harder it is to lose the weight. Once I get towards the middle of the overweight category, my body is going to cling to the fat like there's no tomorrow, because that's how our bodies are programmed--for survival! But I have lost 30 pounds. I have lost 30 pounds without being able to exercise properly (thanks, left ankle). I sat on a couch and lost weight for about 6 weeks. I know I have a LONG, LONG, LONG way to go. But I'm doing it. By my standards, I feel as if I pigged out this weekend and I still maintained/lost. So how is it that you 300+ people can't seem to keep off a pound? I hate to write stuff like this. I'm not writing it to be discouraging and if you take offense to this, I do apologize. But if you can't buckle down and eat 2000 calories a day, I don't know what to tell you.

I am disappointed and annoyed when I see that people that size say they can't do it. I am not including those of you with thyroid disease or diabetes or other diseases that make weight loss twice as difficult. I am not a doctor yet, I know very little about those diseases and I will not pretend to know the first thing about them. But there are many of you that have no problems other than obesity. So what are you doing?! Excuse my French, but what the FUCK are you eating that you can't at least get to under 300 pounds?

Anyway, I'll probably lose followers for this but que sera, sera. This is my blog. Follow me or not, I have an opinion.

Food Journal
1 wheat bagel, hollowed out
2 egg whites + sprinkle of mozzarella cheese
1 Skinny Cow ice cream (God, I'm addicted)
1 coffee with half and half
1 apple
Homemade chicken quesadilla (2 fat free tortillas, skinless chicken breast, lettuce, mozzarella cheese, greek yogurt, low cal guacamole)
1 banana
1/4 pineapple
[Here's how I see today: Too many carbs, good amount of protein, great amount of fruits, not enough vegetables] Tomorrow, I will commit to eating less carbs, same amount (or more) of protein, same amount of fruit, MORE vegetables.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Dear This Weekend, Go Die in a Hole

Lol, ok. Well, it wasn't as bad as I put up there, honestly. I just decided to be over-dramatic. The reason I didn't post wasn't because I was embarrassed or upset or anything. I just honestly didn't have the time. I had a fun-filled weekend.

Thursday morning, I hardly ate. Then I went to Thanksgiving. It was slightly difficult to stick to my plan because for some weird, unknown reasons, we had almost no vegetables. Literally, there was no salad that didn't have fat in it. I still did well, though. I ate, but I paced myself and drank a lot of diet iced tea. It also helped that I hadn't eaten that entire day.

Friday, we had Thanksgiving part 2. I didn't eat at all in the morning, then I went to the movies to see Harry Potter with A, R, and his little brother. I had half a bag of peanut M&M's as my breakfast and a small diet coke. Then I went to Thanksgiving Part 2, which wasn't horrible. Again, it was difficult to stick directly on plan, but I brought a Caprese salad (tomato, basil, fresh mozzarella and balsamic vinagrette) and some amazing corn bread. I drank less champagne than everyone, so that was on plan as well.

Saturday, I ate a turkey sandwich with some apple slices and then went to the Y. There, they had an entire potluck, but I only ate a few chocolate kisses. Then, I went to R's house for some bonding and dinner. We had spaghetti, shrimp and fried clams for dinner. It wasn't exactly my most on-plan meal, but overall, not that bad.

This morning, I had some turkey, a little bit of Indian rice and a teaspoon (literally) of stuffing. But I was super hungry, so I also had a cup of cereal and a Skinny Cow ice cream. Later, I had a peanut butter sandwich and then I went to the city with my family. We went to Century 21, where I walked around for half an hour, looking for stuff. I was mildly depressed because these thoughts were going through my head: "I can't shop for shoes, because I don't know what kind of shoes I'm allowed to wear and last time I tried to wear shoes that weren't sneakers for more than 2 days, I was in extreme pain. I don't want to shop for clothes, because I'm fat and nothing looks good on me. And makeup is pointless, because I'm fat and no amount of makeup is going to conceal that." It didn't help that I was in sweatpants and my college sweatshirt. Anyway, I felt pretty horrible, to say the least.

I ended up getting out of my slump and getting into size 31 jeans (barely, but I zipped them up AND bought them- they cost $120 originally, because they were Seven for Mankind), a Giacci jacket ($50) and a Green With Envy Jacket ($90- environmentally friendly company, really cool- the jacket is actually grey, haha). I was originally only going to get 1 jacket, but my parents were kind enough to get me both. Then, we also had these 3 25% off coupons, so we used those with joy. Then we went to Whole Foods and I stocked up on vegetables and chicken and greek yogurt and whatnot, so that next week will go as planned (although I am now 100% positive I am not hitting my goal, which pisses me off, but that's a whole different rant) and we also got some food, because I realized, I didn't really eat much that day. We got a box of Indian food and salad, and split it into 3. I ate until I was full, drank a whole bunch of zero cal Vitamin Water, ate a tangerine when I got home and I'm done.

Tomorrow, I'm going to physical therapy at 1 (my next to last session, though I feel like I need more but the damn insurance refuses), then class at 3:40. I'll be getting up early, because I'm making myself a yummy chicken quesadilla for lunch. I am going to make it under 400 calories, wait for it. I'll post the recipe. And I am going to overload on vegetables for the next week, while eating other things.

I am preparing for Cyber Monday now. I am getting a 160GB Ipod for Hanukkah, so I will finally start downloading music again (I am in desperate need of new music) and I'm going to try and find a cheap pair of Uggs in hopes of coaxing my ankle into behaving and allowing me to wear them.

**Edit: A size 31 in Seven for all Mankind jeans is equivalent to a size 10 or 11. I fit into those. Wow. I threw out jeans the other day that were a size seventeen and were a little tight when I first tried them on. How's that for an accomplishment?

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!

Hug your loved ones and be thankful for the people and the things that you have been blessed with. I read an article in the Wall Street Journal. The more grateful you are, the better off you are, basically. I'll post up a link soon. 

Morning started off fine. 8:30, woke up, drank some water, ate a banana. Got my nails done (orange, for Thanksgiving), sat with my mom while she got hers done, came home, ate a tangerine. I'm off to my brother's. We're having an early dinner at around 2 because my nephew gets pretty cranky after 6 or so. Lots of love. Don't overeat! Enjoy this time with your family. Thanksgiving is not about food. It's about being thankful.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

SUCCESS :D And Day 3 of the detox

Got on the scale this morning. First, it showed me an even 190.0. Then, I got on the scale about 4 more times or so and got 188.6! I literally got on about 4 or 5 times just to make sure I wasn't being lied to. Wow. That is all I can say. I am under 190. At first, I wasn't planning on celebrating until Saturday, but what the heck! I've gone from 193 to 188.6 in a matter of days. Why the heck shouldn't I celebrate just because it's a Wednesday?!

Things to celebrate.....
1. My BMI is 29.5! That means that I am out, out, out of the obese category forever! Yes, it's only by .5 BMI points, but still! I'm out! I am no longer obese, people. I am now just overweight. Wahooo!

2. I have not been under 190 since...junior high school? I remember, in the 6th grade, having a conversation with someone that I was 150 and they couldn't believe it, because I didn't look that heavy (I've been 5'7 since the 6th or 7th grade, so I was very tall for my age and 150 looked fine on me). That means that I managed to gain 40 or so pounds in 3 years. I am lighter than I was through ALL of high school.

3. My monthly goal seems attainable again (186.6 by November 29th). That's a little less than 2 pounds by next Tuesday. I can totally do that or at least near that. At the beginning of this week (just 2 short days ago), I had given up completely on reaching 186.6 by that time, because I had been plateauing for 2 or so weeks already! But I am so, so close. Thank you detox.

4. FUNNY STORY. Today...I put on the dress. Sort of, lol. So I'd been putting on this dress almost daily for weeks and the zipper would go half way up and it wasn't budging. I was soooo mad that I stopped, until this morning. I was fully committed to getting that dress on, one way or the other. I was convinced that the zipper was shitty (because it's Forever 21, so it actually is) and that I would put on the dress without unzipping it first. Hm. Don't try this at home kids. First, I tried the "from the bottom up" version, but that didn't work so well because my hips are still pretty large and unlike the girls, I can't just wiggle them to and fro until they fit into the dress. So then I did the very dangerous, yet usually very effective, "from the top down" version. I could not breathe. The dress stopped right above the girl and it was a mad dash to try to pull it over so I could breathe. I was standing in the bathroom, half suffocating and attempting to pull the dress either one way or the other but the piece of crap would. not. budge. So, I managed to reach behind myself, unclip the bra and let the girls free. Then came the laborious process of attempting to hoist up the girls, one at a time, away from the thin waist-line of the dress and out so that I could breathe again. Eventually, it happened. It hurt, but it happened. I was out of breath, but I was in the dress. All said and done, I don't like how the dress looks on me yet because clearly, the top part is way too tight and way too small, so I'll have to wait until the girls shrink a little bit more to wear it. I wish I had gotten a picture, because there is no way I am putting that thing on again, until I'm certain that I'll have some breathing room.

Tonight, I am going sake bombing with my friends. If you're not familiar with sake bombing...look it up. Anyway, it would usually involve alcohol and massive amounts of sushi so that I wouldn't get too drunk. However, I can't drink because I'm antibiotics for my acne (which is, by the way, working beautifully) and so I will be eating one avocado roll (140 cals) and 2 pieces of sashimi. That's in addition to my detox stuff, but I am confident that I will still lose weight tomorrow and that all will be fine.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 2 Detox

Got on the scale this morning. 191.4. Happy dance! Yesterday, I lied to my mom about my weight and told her I was 191.6, so she was confused when I was happy about the 191.4. That was when I realized I lied. She wasn't too mad, but she did laugh at me and ask what made me do that. Something along the lines of "What did you think I was going to do? Laugh at you? Yell at you?" And I knew that she wouldn't do either of those things and I told her I didn't know why I lied. But I know why. I didn't want to disappoint her. And by being 193, I felt like I was disappointing her.

Anyway, I'm not counting that as a weigh in. I will weigh in on Saturday morning, as always. Here is the menu for the day.

8 oz water
8 oz water with 1/2 lemon
1 banana
2/3 cup brown rice with a packet of Splenda and 1 tsp butter/oil mix (sounds weird...it was amazing)
8 oz water + 1 Vitamin C (I'm not doing the veggie water anymore. Explanation below.), 8 oz coffee
3 oz chicken
1 cup bell pepper
1 cup potato
1 cup carrots
1 cup zucchini
1 tsp butter/oil mix
8 oz water
1 cup bell pepper

1 cup potato
1 cup carrots

1 cup zucchini
1 tsp butter/oil mix
Fluids so far
8 oz water
8 oz lemon water
8 oz coffee
16.9 oz water bottle
Total: 40/9 oz
Coming up in fluid land: 20 oz diet coke, 16 oz tea, 16 oz water (will total out to 92.9...plus almost everything I'm eating is water based. I can't stop peeing, lol)

Biggest Loser is on soon. Very excited, even though most of my favorites are gone. Ada, Patrick, and Frado are still there, which makes me happy. I pretty much like most of the people left. However, Elizabeth bugs me and I don't think Lisa deserves to be there. The only reason Elizabeth is there is because nobody views her as a threat and Brendan and Frado have her back, because they're all from Boston. And Lisa...just no. What is her problem? She took someone's spot that would've appreciated it. Just bugs me.

Kimberly asked me a question. What happens after the detox?
I consulted the doctor and here's what I read. First of all, most people do this for seven days. However, I'm still a growing person (I've just turned 19) and so it's probably not advisable for me. Additionally, I plan to repeat this every month, so 7 days isn't so necessary and might even be too much. (My next detox, in case anyone is wondering, will be the 3 days before Christmas) After the detox, I will continue on with my eating patterns. After 3 days of clean eating, my body will not be so quick to accept tons and tons of food and I will be getting full faster. So, after the detox, I go back to eating whatever I want, but I limit my portion sizes. This is where it will come in handy with Thanksgiving. I know that my body can't tolerate so much food after so little food and I know it won't be able to tolerate as much sodium and sugar. Because of this, I will have to force myself to be careful, unless I want to get sick. Which I don't. So that is that. Eventually, my body will go back to accepting all of those things, but by the time that happens, there will be about a week and a half, I think, until I'm going to do it all over again.

I will try to go on the Wii today for some added exercise. Hope you're all having great days!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Detox, Day 1 Part 2

Starting Weight: 220 lbs
Last Week's Weight: 192
This Week's Weight: 193
(glad we have that over with, I'll let you know what I see on Wednesday...hopefully something good after this detox)

Today went pretty well. No slip-ups, major or otherwise. I think I can do this for 2 more days. I ate everything I said I would, except my coffee was tall today, so it was 20 calories, not 30. So a 955 deficit, but I also had a piece of gum, so whatever. Something around 950 was my deficit for the day...not counting my exercise. Because, my daily caloric need (to maintain) is 2064. I had 745. That deficit is 1319 calories. Too much math. We'll see what happens. Anyway, that vegetable water is DISGUSTING, but whatever. I found a place to heat up my lunch in Hillel, which is really useful because I think it would taste icky cold. Eventually, I just downed the vegetable water, lol. I chugged it like I used to chug beer from a funnel. I just opened my throat and let the veggie water slide down. It was gross. I hated it. But I got through it. I started feeling a little bit woozy around 4:30-5, but then I got home, ate my dinner and I'm feeling fine.

Here's my fluid intake for the day:
8 oz water
8 oz water with lemon
8 oz coffee
16 oz veggie water (ewwww)
32 oz Snapple
Total: 72 oz
I'm going to have another few cups of tea before I go to bed, leaving me at 96 oz. Although most of the stuff that I ate today was water based, so I don't know...

My Thanksgiving Plan....
1/2 plate veggies, 1/4 plate protein, 1/4 plate carbs - Thank you partially to Allan and partially to UMichigan. I will fill up my plate in that fashion and eat everything on it before I fill up another plate. When I can't finish my veggies or my protein or my carbs (most likely the first one, lol) then that means I'm full. Dessert will be a tiny, tiny portion of everything that looks yummy and a bunch of fruit.

I'm being lazy right now and not cooking, because I need to nap, because I am tired. That's all for now. Tah-tah!

Detox, Day 1

So far, so good...But it's only 10AM lol.

1 plain glass of water
1 glass of water with half a lemon squeezed in and a packet of Splenda
1 Apple
1 cup of brown rice with 1 tsp canola oil and butter mix and pepper

Planned for the rest of the day
1 cup coffee
Snack: 8 oz vegetable water with a dash of salt, Vitamin C capsule (no time to find powder) and 6 oz of water
Lunch: 1 cup orange peppers, 1 cup broccoli, 1 cup potatoes, 1 cup carrots + 1 tsp of canola oil/butter mix and 3 oz of boiled chicken
Snack: 8 oz vegetable water with dash of salt, Vitamin D capsule and 6 oz of water
Dinner: 1 cup orange pepper, 1 cup broccoli, 1 cup potatoes, 1 cup carrots + 1 tsp of canola oil/butter mix

It's about 745 calories a day, which, for me, is a deficit of 975 calories a day, using my basal metabolic rate although that is also inaccurate, because I'm not sitting around all day. But we'll just stick to that. So, if I can keep this, in 3 days, I will have had about (about, because I might use different veggies) 2925 calories deficit, which sadly, is not even a pound. But I'm not doing this for a quick weight loss. I'm doing this to gear myself up for Thanksgiving and with a huge deficit like that and the mindset that I must not overeat, I should be fine come Turkey Day. I'm already certain that I will not be hitting my goal, because it's 186.6 and I somehow got up to 194.5 and am now only back down to 193 but no matter. I'm pushing straight forward.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Wow! Sorry about that, lol...

So, I went upstate to visit my friends at school and TOTALLY forgot to tell everyone. I didn't count calories, but I ate pretty healthy. Came back today at around 5 or so and weighed myself. By Friday of last week, I was on plan (eating less than 1200 calories a day and drinking almost 100 oz of water every day) and I was up to 194.6 lbs IN THE MORNING. That's up by 2.6 pounds after two weeks. Wtf. Today, after not counting calories for 3 days, I am back down to 193 after eating  2 meals. I don't know what this means. I didn't send in my weight to Allan, only because I honestly have no idea what it is. I had no access to a scale this weekend (apparently, my friends don't like to weigh themselves, but hell, who does?) and my best guess is a gain of a pound, which really won't change my numbers.

Anyway, I'm doing this detox thing. It's not like the usual detoxes you hear about, because I actually get to eat. Here's what it is..

Wake Up Drink
Drink two 8-ounce glasses of water.
Into 1 glass, squeeze ½ lemon (stimulates digestive juices)
Breakfast (between 7 and 8am)
1 piece fresh fruit (apple, pear, banana, ½ cup pineapple, etc.)
After 15-30 minutes…Eat 1-2 cups of cooked whole grains (amaranth, buckwheat, brown rice, millet, or quinoa- avoid barley, corn, oats, rye and wheat)
To flavor…add 2 tbsp of 100 percent fruit juice or 1 tsp of an oil and butter mix*
Mid-Morning Snack (around 11am)
Sip 1 to 2 cups of the vegetable water left over from steaming lunch and dinner (reheat and season with a dash of salt)
Take 250 mg of Vitamin C powder, mixed with 6 oz of water
Lunch (between 12pm-1pm)
4 cups steamed vegetables
Add olive oil mix, just olive oil, or flaxseed oil as well as garlic, salt, garlic salt, or vegetable salt and fresh herbs like basil, mint, or oregano
3 oz chicken
Afternoon Snack (around 3pm)
Sip 1 to 2 cups of leftover vegetable water.
Take 250 mg of Vitamin C powder, mixed with 6 oz of water
Dinner (6pm-7pm)
4 cups steamed vegetables
Add olive oil mix, just olive oil, flaxseed oil as well as garlic, salt, garlic salt, vegetable salt and fresh herbs like basil, mint, or oregano
Do not eat anything after 7pm, but feel free to drink non-caffeinated tea.
*Combine ¼ cup of extra-virgin olive oil or cold-pressed canola oil and 1 stick of room-temperature butter- use max 3 tsp a day)

The original one had absolutely no protein, had twice as much vitamin C and also had an extra multivitamin in there. Here's why I changed it. First off, it said that if you don't think you can handle such a small amount of protein, add 3 oz of it to lunch (so I added the steamed chicken). The Vitamin C...It can give you some GI problems, so I'd rather not risk it. I take 500 a day now in capsule form so I think I'll be fine. I have to go get that mix tomorrow. Otherwise, I might just take the 500mg capsule once and drink it down with 6 oz of water. As for the extra multivitamin? Honestly, I'm not a big fan of the multivitamin. I like taking Vitamin C, but I'm just not sure about the rest of it and how much I need of it or anything. I'm no expert, so I'd rather not mess around with it.

I'm doing this detox for 3 days (until Thanksgiving). The website recommends 7 days. I know, however, that I will not be doing this for Thanksgiving and I'd actually like to detox a bit before Thanksgiving anyway, because I'm fairly certain that cleansing my body for a few days is going to make me feel great and will encourage me not to eat a lot for the holiday. Also, it will make up for any amount of calories that I went over this weekend (although, I did lose...but whatever...maybe that was an accident).

Hope you all had an awesome week/weekend and I apologize for the mix-up.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

All chemistry and no Dayquil makes Rachel a dull girl.

Lol, okay. Well my day wasn't ALL chemistry, lol. But here's what's going on. I'm committing myself to eating more fruits and veggies, even if it means a few more calories. Today, I ate 12 ounces of pineapple and a huge apple and I feel great. And, in case anyone is wondering, my aforementioned problem is gone now. I didn't get to go on the treadmill today, but I did get on the Wii and burn 113 calories. It told me I lost 3.3 pounds since yesterday, LMAO. What drugs is that thing on and where can I get some?!

Food Journal
1 WW English muffin (41g): 95 calories
1 tbsp peanut butter: 85 calories
1 230 g apple: 120 calories (that was one gigantic apple, lol)
1 coffee: 30 calories
1 can of Progresso Low Sodium Chicken Soup: 180 calories (HOW CRAZY IS THAT? The lowest calorie soup I've found yet and has a bunch of veggies and white meat)
1 bag pop corn: 200 calories
2 Babybel: 100 calories
Soup: 150 calories
12 oz Pineapple: 170 calories
Total: 1130 calories (and I ate A LOT, it seems, today)

Today was a hard day because I woke up, feeling very sick. I prefer not to take Dayquil or Nyquil or anything of the sort unless I absolutely can't live without it. I'm the same with Tylenol and any kind of medicine. If I really need to take it, I will. Otherwise, I try to have Vitamin C and tea, because your body builds up immunity to these kinds of drugs and I'd rather have them work when I really, really need them. So, yup. Gotta get back to chemistry. I'm not confident in my abilities yet and the test is Thursday, oy vey.

Monday, November 15, 2010

A bleh day with an ok end

Well, today was annoying. I felt fat all day. There's no way to sugarcoat that. All day, I felt like the fat girl. I don't know what was up with that. Then, I got home and my Wii told me I'd gained 2.9 pounds since yesterday. Okay, so I know that's not true. I mean, get real...I would have to eat...I don't even know what I would have to eat to gain 2.9 pounds. However, I will say this. Disclaimer: This is probably TMI but I'm doing it anyway. I have not pooped since Friday or Saturday. Can't remember which one. Now, I'm not too worried about this, because it's happened before and it's really not too big a deal. It's been at the most 3 days, which is fine. The frustrating thing about this is that it means I'm not losing anything! And that's really quite annoying.

I've been eating a lot of protein, but I think I'm going to go back to more carbs, because that was working really well for me and I'm not sure I quit at it. I mean, if something works, why change it? If the carbs suddenly stop working, I'll change them. But why change the parts on a well-oiled machine. I ate more carbs today and  I wasn't as ferociously hungry as I have been. I eat whole wheat, so it fills me up. I also think that it will help with my bathroom problem, because fiber makes you go. So we'll see how the end of this week comes. I'm not in this to lose 100 pounds in ten weeks or something crazy, you know? It's trial and error. When something doesn't work, I change it.

So I saw the +2.9, didn't think much of it, started playing my Wii, finished one game and bam. I had tears in my eyes and I had no idea why. So I quickly went upstairs before anyone could notice and bawled my eyes out in the bathroom. I do not even know. I am upset and I am frustrated. I know that I'm drinking a heck load of fluids, but I got on my real scale right after I got on the Wii scale (it was 7:00 so I know that's not my real weight, but it still scared me) and it said 197.8. My jaw dropped. It was probably that, that made me more upset than anything.

Anyway, starting tomorrow, we are back to complex carbs and tons of vegetables and we'll see how the next couple of days go. I'm taking a trip up to my regular school this weekend, so that should be..erm, interesting. I'll try not to drink, but I don't know what I'm going to eat. I have no meal plan, lol. I don't know. I guess we'll see what happens.

Anyway, after my crying episode, I went downstairs back to the Wii and ended up burning 135 calories. Then I walked a mile on the treadmill (slowly, obviously, because of my ankle) for 25 minutes and burned another 113 calories. So that was nice. Um, I don't really know what else to write. I'll just leave it at my food journal.

Food Journal
Oatmeal with banana & peanut butter: 230 calories
Subway sandwich: 280 calories
Whole wheat Wrap with chicken mozarella tomato and spinach: 400 calories
Chicken Soup: 200 calories
Coffee: 30 calories
Total Calories: 1040
Yes, that is a whole lotta carb, but I am feeling satisfied for the first time in days. I need to find an easy balance.
Fluid Intake for the day is 106.8 oz