Tuesday, November 30, 2010

November Goals

1. Lose 10 pounds (leaving me at 186.6 lbs.) by Tuesday, November 30th.
Nope. I am at 189.4, but I think that 10 pounds was mildly unrealistic.
2. Burn 500 calories a week on the Wii Fit. 
Yes and no. Technically, I was supposed to burn 2000 calories this month and I know I've burned more than that on the Wii Fit, but it may not have been split into four weeks.
3. Take a 10 minute walk 3 times a week. 
4. Lose the limp! 
5. Blog at least 6 times a week. 
There was one week where I only blogged 3 times, but I blogged enough in the other 3 weeks to make up for that.
6. Fit into "the dress"
SUCCESSFUL...even if I did almost suffocate7. Get my damn room clean. 
I am nowhere near done with this thing. I started, but it is not by any means "clean"

Next month's goals are coming up either later tonight, after some work has been completed or tomorrow!

Weigh-in and a quickie before class

Starting Weight: 220
Last Weight: 191.2
Today's Weight: 189.4

So, I lost 1.8 lbs, which is great because it was Thanksgiving. That and the week before Thanksgiving, I was getting 194.5 or something like that in between weigh-ins? My weigh-ins have been pretty irregular again, so I am going back to Saturday. I will weigh-in again this Saturday and then try to keep to my Saturday schedule. I'm pretty happy with that loss, even though it means that I officially didn't reach my monthly goal. About 3 pounds off. On October 30th, I was 196.6 and today, I am 189.4. 7.2 lbs in a month. My goal was 186.6, so I'm about 3 pounds off. Not great, but I lost 7.2 pounds in a month where I was plateauing for a good 2 weeks! So, anyway, next month will be better. Either tonight or tomorrow, I will do a review of all my goals (I didn't do that great....lol) and make new goals for December, keeping in mind what is realistic and what is necessary.

Off to class now. Post again later, most likely.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Some news and some rants

So, first of all, I made the conscious decision today not to count calories for a week, because here is what I have been doing as of lately. If I am at 700 calories for the day, I do not pay attention to how full or how hungry I am. I tell myself that I should be hungry and so I finish off with at least 300 more calories, some days 500. By seeing how few calories I've ingested, I make myself hungry. And I've come to the conclusion that this is stupid. Here's the math, real quick. My BMR, or Basal Metabolic Rate is 1716 calories a day. That is the amount of calories that I would burn if I lay in bed all day. Now, I don't just sit all day. But, I can't really exercise yet either because of my ankle. I do as much walking as I can, but it's not much. So, let's say it's 2000 calories a day, for shits and giggles. That means, I would need to eat 2000 calories a day in order to maintain and anything less than that is a loss. 1000 calories a day should mean a 2 lb loss and 1500 calories a day should mean a 1 lb loss. If you look at my little bar to the side, there is no way I am losing 2 lbs or 1 lb a week. So I must be doing something wrong, here. I should be losing more weight than I am.

But here's the thing. A calorie is not just a calorie. Processed food will make you fat. Even if McDonald's fits into your plan of action, it will still make you fat. And vegetables will make you skinny. If you eat 1500 calories a day with more vegetables and lean proteins and less processed foods and candy bars, as opposed to the other way around, my theory (and it's supported by many) is that you will not see the same results. The Biggest Loser tells you this and every nutritionist tells you this. When I tell myself I have 1000 calories, I don't eat as many fruits and vegetables for fear that they have too many calories. An apple has as many calories as a few pretzel sticks and sometimes, I want the pretzel sticks more. By forgetting about how many calories I should eat and listening to my body, I find that I consume way more fruits and vegetables and will most likely lose more. How am I going to do this? A scientific test. It's not very scientific because I am both the control and the variable and there's no proof that this will work for anyone but me. But hell, I am doing this for me, right? So I will try this for a week and see how I feel/how the scale feels.

Note: This does not mean that I am eating everything that comes to mind. I am being watchful and mindful and the calories are still there somewhere in the back of my head, almost on auto-pilot. As you will see in my food journal below, I'm still making healthy choices. I'm just doing it differently. We'll see what happens.

You think that was the rant? HAHA, no. Here's the thing. I've seen a lot of people rag on Allan and I never understood why. I mean, the guy has lost tons and tons of weight! Why are people ragging on his plan? I do not, in any way, follow Allan's plan. I eat meat, I didn't start off with liquids, I like to change things up, etc. But it doesn't annoy me in any way that we are different. I have absolutely no problem reading Allan's posts every day. In fact, I enjoy them! While I disagree with him often, I agree with his basic fundamental, which is the fact that weight loss is no joke! You can't just dilly dally, eat McDonald's plus dessert and call it a day. Weight loss is difficult. If it wasn't, we wouldn't be suffering an obesity epidemic! So, please, guys. If you don't agree with him, that's all fine and dandy, but don't put him down like he has no idea what he's talking about. Clearly, he has an idea or two. And if they don't work for you or you can't handle it (I am a part of the latter and I freely admit it), then read, agree/disagree and move on. Or if it bothers you so much, then don't read! I mean, come on, people. This is a little bit ridiculous now. Allan may be harsh sometimes, but he's no Diet Demon. He's helping plenty of people lose weight, he's a good guy. End Rant 1. Onto Rant 2.

Most of you people that I follow are 300+ pounds. Some are 250, some are 150, but most of the ones I follow are over 300 pounds. If you do the math, you can eat 2000 calories a day and lose TONS of weight, as long as you're not only eating processed foods and at least attempting to make healthy choices. 2000 calories in the land of Rachel is a feast! I have been eating less than 1200 calories a day, usually less than 1000. 2000 calories. I mean, damn! That's a lot of food. You could have tons of chicken, tons of fruit, a bunch of sugar free cookies, maybe some lean beef and you could cheat and you could STILL lose weight. So wtf is the problem?

I am 192 pounds. In the land of the blog, we call that "onederland". People dream of being this size. And I also stand at 5'7"-5'8", so I'm not short by any means. And yet, I am losing weight faster than people that are over 100 pounds heavier than me. It's no secret that the less you weigh, the harder it is to lose the weight. Once I get towards the middle of the overweight category, my body is going to cling to the fat like there's no tomorrow, because that's how our bodies are programmed--for survival! But I have lost 30 pounds. I have lost 30 pounds without being able to exercise properly (thanks, left ankle). I sat on a couch and lost weight for about 6 weeks. I know I have a LONG, LONG, LONG way to go. But I'm doing it. By my standards, I feel as if I pigged out this weekend and I still maintained/lost. So how is it that you 300+ people can't seem to keep off a pound? I hate to write stuff like this. I'm not writing it to be discouraging and if you take offense to this, I do apologize. But if you can't buckle down and eat 2000 calories a day, I don't know what to tell you.

I am disappointed and annoyed when I see that people that size say they can't do it. I am not including those of you with thyroid disease or diabetes or other diseases that make weight loss twice as difficult. I am not a doctor yet, I know very little about those diseases and I will not pretend to know the first thing about them. But there are many of you that have no problems other than obesity. So what are you doing?! Excuse my French, but what the FUCK are you eating that you can't at least get to under 300 pounds?

Anyway, I'll probably lose followers for this but que sera, sera. This is my blog. Follow me or not, I have an opinion.

Food Journal
1 wheat bagel, hollowed out
2 egg whites + sprinkle of mozzarella cheese
1 Skinny Cow ice cream (God, I'm addicted)
1 coffee with half and half
1 apple
Homemade chicken quesadilla (2 fat free tortillas, skinless chicken breast, lettuce, mozzarella cheese, greek yogurt, low cal guacamole)
1 banana
1/4 pineapple
[Here's how I see today: Too many carbs, good amount of protein, great amount of fruits, not enough vegetables] Tomorrow, I will commit to eating less carbs, same amount (or more) of protein, same amount of fruit, MORE vegetables.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Dear This Weekend, Go Die in a Hole

Lol, ok. Well, it wasn't as bad as I put up there, honestly. I just decided to be over-dramatic. The reason I didn't post wasn't because I was embarrassed or upset or anything. I just honestly didn't have the time. I had a fun-filled weekend.

Thursday morning, I hardly ate. Then I went to Thanksgiving. It was slightly difficult to stick to my plan because for some weird, unknown reasons, we had almost no vegetables. Literally, there was no salad that didn't have fat in it. I still did well, though. I ate, but I paced myself and drank a lot of diet iced tea. It also helped that I hadn't eaten that entire day.

Friday, we had Thanksgiving part 2. I didn't eat at all in the morning, then I went to the movies to see Harry Potter with A, R, and his little brother. I had half a bag of peanut M&M's as my breakfast and a small diet coke. Then I went to Thanksgiving Part 2, which wasn't horrible. Again, it was difficult to stick directly on plan, but I brought a Caprese salad (tomato, basil, fresh mozzarella and balsamic vinagrette) and some amazing corn bread. I drank less champagne than everyone, so that was on plan as well.

Saturday, I ate a turkey sandwich with some apple slices and then went to the Y. There, they had an entire potluck, but I only ate a few chocolate kisses. Then, I went to R's house for some bonding and dinner. We had spaghetti, shrimp and fried clams for dinner. It wasn't exactly my most on-plan meal, but overall, not that bad.

This morning, I had some turkey, a little bit of Indian rice and a teaspoon (literally) of stuffing. But I was super hungry, so I also had a cup of cereal and a Skinny Cow ice cream. Later, I had a peanut butter sandwich and then I went to the city with my family. We went to Century 21, where I walked around for half an hour, looking for stuff. I was mildly depressed because these thoughts were going through my head: "I can't shop for shoes, because I don't know what kind of shoes I'm allowed to wear and last time I tried to wear shoes that weren't sneakers for more than 2 days, I was in extreme pain. I don't want to shop for clothes, because I'm fat and nothing looks good on me. And makeup is pointless, because I'm fat and no amount of makeup is going to conceal that." It didn't help that I was in sweatpants and my college sweatshirt. Anyway, I felt pretty horrible, to say the least.

I ended up getting out of my slump and getting into size 31 jeans (barely, but I zipped them up AND bought them- they cost $120 originally, because they were Seven for Mankind), a Giacci jacket ($50) and a Green With Envy Jacket ($90- environmentally friendly company, really cool- the jacket is actually grey, haha). I was originally only going to get 1 jacket, but my parents were kind enough to get me both. Then, we also had these 3 25% off coupons, so we used those with joy. Then we went to Whole Foods and I stocked up on vegetables and chicken and greek yogurt and whatnot, so that next week will go as planned (although I am now 100% positive I am not hitting my goal, which pisses me off, but that's a whole different rant) and we also got some food, because I realized, I didn't really eat much that day. We got a box of Indian food and salad, and split it into 3. I ate until I was full, drank a whole bunch of zero cal Vitamin Water, ate a tangerine when I got home and I'm done.

Tomorrow, I'm going to physical therapy at 1 (my next to last session, though I feel like I need more but the damn insurance refuses), then class at 3:40. I'll be getting up early, because I'm making myself a yummy chicken quesadilla for lunch. I am going to make it under 400 calories, wait for it. I'll post the recipe. And I am going to overload on vegetables for the next week, while eating other things.

I am preparing for Cyber Monday now. I am getting a 160GB Ipod for Hanukkah, so I will finally start downloading music again (I am in desperate need of new music) and I'm going to try and find a cheap pair of Uggs in hopes of coaxing my ankle into behaving and allowing me to wear them.

**Edit: A size 31 in Seven for all Mankind jeans is equivalent to a size 10 or 11. I fit into those. Wow. I threw out jeans the other day that were a size seventeen and were a little tight when I first tried them on. How's that for an accomplishment?

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!

Hug your loved ones and be thankful for the people and the things that you have been blessed with. I read an article in the Wall Street Journal. The more grateful you are, the better off you are, basically. I'll post up a link soon. 

Morning started off fine. 8:30, woke up, drank some water, ate a banana. Got my nails done (orange, for Thanksgiving), sat with my mom while she got hers done, came home, ate a tangerine. I'm off to my brother's. We're having an early dinner at around 2 because my nephew gets pretty cranky after 6 or so. Lots of love. Don't overeat! Enjoy this time with your family. Thanksgiving is not about food. It's about being thankful.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

SUCCESS :D And Day 3 of the detox

Got on the scale this morning. First, it showed me an even 190.0. Then, I got on the scale about 4 more times or so and got 188.6! I literally got on about 4 or 5 times just to make sure I wasn't being lied to. Wow. That is all I can say. I am under 190. At first, I wasn't planning on celebrating until Saturday, but what the heck! I've gone from 193 to 188.6 in a matter of days. Why the heck shouldn't I celebrate just because it's a Wednesday?!

Things to celebrate.....
1. My BMI is 29.5! That means that I am out, out, out of the obese category forever! Yes, it's only by .5 BMI points, but still! I'm out! I am no longer obese, people. I am now just overweight. Wahooo!

2. I have not been under 190 since...junior high school? I remember, in the 6th grade, having a conversation with someone that I was 150 and they couldn't believe it, because I didn't look that heavy (I've been 5'7 since the 6th or 7th grade, so I was very tall for my age and 150 looked fine on me). That means that I managed to gain 40 or so pounds in 3 years. I am lighter than I was through ALL of high school.

3. My monthly goal seems attainable again (186.6 by November 29th). That's a little less than 2 pounds by next Tuesday. I can totally do that or at least near that. At the beginning of this week (just 2 short days ago), I had given up completely on reaching 186.6 by that time, because I had been plateauing for 2 or so weeks already! But I am so, so close. Thank you detox.

4. FUNNY STORY. Today...I put on the dress. Sort of, lol. So I'd been putting on this dress almost daily for weeks and the zipper would go half way up and it wasn't budging. I was soooo mad that I stopped, until this morning. I was fully committed to getting that dress on, one way or the other. I was convinced that the zipper was shitty (because it's Forever 21, so it actually is) and that I would put on the dress without unzipping it first. Hm. Don't try this at home kids. First, I tried the "from the bottom up" version, but that didn't work so well because my hips are still pretty large and unlike the girls, I can't just wiggle them to and fro until they fit into the dress. So then I did the very dangerous, yet usually very effective, "from the top down" version. I could not breathe. The dress stopped right above the girl and it was a mad dash to try to pull it over so I could breathe. I was standing in the bathroom, half suffocating and attempting to pull the dress either one way or the other but the piece of crap would. not. budge. So, I managed to reach behind myself, unclip the bra and let the girls free. Then came the laborious process of attempting to hoist up the girls, one at a time, away from the thin waist-line of the dress and out so that I could breathe again. Eventually, it happened. It hurt, but it happened. I was out of breath, but I was in the dress. All said and done, I don't like how the dress looks on me yet because clearly, the top part is way too tight and way too small, so I'll have to wait until the girls shrink a little bit more to wear it. I wish I had gotten a picture, because there is no way I am putting that thing on again, until I'm certain that I'll have some breathing room.

Tonight, I am going sake bombing with my friends. If you're not familiar with sake bombing...look it up. Anyway, it would usually involve alcohol and massive amounts of sushi so that I wouldn't get too drunk. However, I can't drink because I'm antibiotics for my acne (which is, by the way, working beautifully) and so I will be eating one avocado roll (140 cals) and 2 pieces of sashimi. That's in addition to my detox stuff, but I am confident that I will still lose weight tomorrow and that all will be fine.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 2 Detox

Got on the scale this morning. 191.4. Happy dance! Yesterday, I lied to my mom about my weight and told her I was 191.6, so she was confused when I was happy about the 191.4. That was when I realized I lied. She wasn't too mad, but she did laugh at me and ask what made me do that. Something along the lines of "What did you think I was going to do? Laugh at you? Yell at you?" And I knew that she wouldn't do either of those things and I told her I didn't know why I lied. But I know why. I didn't want to disappoint her. And by being 193, I felt like I was disappointing her.

Anyway, I'm not counting that as a weigh in. I will weigh in on Saturday morning, as always. Here is the menu for the day.

8 oz water
8 oz water with 1/2 lemon
1 banana
2/3 cup brown rice with a packet of Splenda and 1 tsp butter/oil mix (sounds weird...it was amazing)
8 oz water + 1 Vitamin C (I'm not doing the veggie water anymore. Explanation below.), 8 oz coffee
3 oz chicken
1 cup bell pepper
1 cup potato
1 cup carrots
1 cup zucchini
1 tsp butter/oil mix
8 oz water
1 cup bell pepper

1 cup potato
1 cup carrots

1 cup zucchini
1 tsp butter/oil mix
Fluids so far
8 oz water
8 oz lemon water
8 oz coffee
16.9 oz water bottle
Total: 40/9 oz
Coming up in fluid land: 20 oz diet coke, 16 oz tea, 16 oz water (will total out to 92.9...plus almost everything I'm eating is water based. I can't stop peeing, lol)

Biggest Loser is on soon. Very excited, even though most of my favorites are gone. Ada, Patrick, and Frado are still there, which makes me happy. I pretty much like most of the people left. However, Elizabeth bugs me and I don't think Lisa deserves to be there. The only reason Elizabeth is there is because nobody views her as a threat and Brendan and Frado have her back, because they're all from Boston. And Lisa...just no. What is her problem? She took someone's spot that would've appreciated it. Just bugs me.

Kimberly asked me a question. What happens after the detox?
I consulted the doctor and here's what I read. First of all, most people do this for seven days. However, I'm still a growing person (I've just turned 19) and so it's probably not advisable for me. Additionally, I plan to repeat this every month, so 7 days isn't so necessary and might even be too much. (My next detox, in case anyone is wondering, will be the 3 days before Christmas) After the detox, I will continue on with my eating patterns. After 3 days of clean eating, my body will not be so quick to accept tons and tons of food and I will be getting full faster. So, after the detox, I go back to eating whatever I want, but I limit my portion sizes. This is where it will come in handy with Thanksgiving. I know that my body can't tolerate so much food after so little food and I know it won't be able to tolerate as much sodium and sugar. Because of this, I will have to force myself to be careful, unless I want to get sick. Which I don't. So that is that. Eventually, my body will go back to accepting all of those things, but by the time that happens, there will be about a week and a half, I think, until I'm going to do it all over again.

I will try to go on the Wii today for some added exercise. Hope you're all having great days!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Detox, Day 1 Part 2

Starting Weight: 220 lbs
Last Week's Weight: 192
This Week's Weight: 193
(glad we have that over with, I'll let you know what I see on Wednesday...hopefully something good after this detox)

Today went pretty well. No slip-ups, major or otherwise. I think I can do this for 2 more days. I ate everything I said I would, except my coffee was tall today, so it was 20 calories, not 30. So a 955 deficit, but I also had a piece of gum, so whatever. Something around 950 was my deficit for the day...not counting my exercise. Because, my daily caloric need (to maintain) is 2064. I had 745. That deficit is 1319 calories. Too much math. We'll see what happens. Anyway, that vegetable water is DISGUSTING, but whatever. I found a place to heat up my lunch in Hillel, which is really useful because I think it would taste icky cold. Eventually, I just downed the vegetable water, lol. I chugged it like I used to chug beer from a funnel. I just opened my throat and let the veggie water slide down. It was gross. I hated it. But I got through it. I started feeling a little bit woozy around 4:30-5, but then I got home, ate my dinner and I'm feeling fine.

Here's my fluid intake for the day:
8 oz water
8 oz water with lemon
8 oz coffee
16 oz veggie water (ewwww)
32 oz Snapple
Total: 72 oz
I'm going to have another few cups of tea before I go to bed, leaving me at 96 oz. Although most of the stuff that I ate today was water based, so I don't know...

My Thanksgiving Plan....
1/2 plate veggies, 1/4 plate protein, 1/4 plate carbs - Thank you partially to Allan and partially to UMichigan. I will fill up my plate in that fashion and eat everything on it before I fill up another plate. When I can't finish my veggies or my protein or my carbs (most likely the first one, lol) then that means I'm full. Dessert will be a tiny, tiny portion of everything that looks yummy and a bunch of fruit.

I'm being lazy right now and not cooking, because I need to nap, because I am tired. That's all for now. Tah-tah!

Detox, Day 1

So far, so good...But it's only 10AM lol.

1 plain glass of water
1 glass of water with half a lemon squeezed in and a packet of Splenda
1 Apple
1 cup of brown rice with 1 tsp canola oil and butter mix and pepper

Planned for the rest of the day
1 cup coffee
Snack: 8 oz vegetable water with a dash of salt, Vitamin C capsule (no time to find powder) and 6 oz of water
Lunch: 1 cup orange peppers, 1 cup broccoli, 1 cup potatoes, 1 cup carrots + 1 tsp of canola oil/butter mix and 3 oz of boiled chicken
Snack: 8 oz vegetable water with dash of salt, Vitamin D capsule and 6 oz of water
Dinner: 1 cup orange pepper, 1 cup broccoli, 1 cup potatoes, 1 cup carrots + 1 tsp of canola oil/butter mix

It's about 745 calories a day, which, for me, is a deficit of 975 calories a day, using my basal metabolic rate although that is also inaccurate, because I'm not sitting around all day. But we'll just stick to that. So, if I can keep this, in 3 days, I will have had about (about, because I might use different veggies) 2925 calories deficit, which sadly, is not even a pound. But I'm not doing this for a quick weight loss. I'm doing this to gear myself up for Thanksgiving and with a huge deficit like that and the mindset that I must not overeat, I should be fine come Turkey Day. I'm already certain that I will not be hitting my goal, because it's 186.6 and I somehow got up to 194.5 and am now only back down to 193 but no matter. I'm pushing straight forward.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Wow! Sorry about that, lol...

So, I went upstate to visit my friends at school and TOTALLY forgot to tell everyone. I didn't count calories, but I ate pretty healthy. Came back today at around 5 or so and weighed myself. By Friday of last week, I was on plan (eating less than 1200 calories a day and drinking almost 100 oz of water every day) and I was up to 194.6 lbs IN THE MORNING. That's up by 2.6 pounds after two weeks. Wtf. Today, after not counting calories for 3 days, I am back down to 193 after eating  2 meals. I don't know what this means. I didn't send in my weight to Allan, only because I honestly have no idea what it is. I had no access to a scale this weekend (apparently, my friends don't like to weigh themselves, but hell, who does?) and my best guess is a gain of a pound, which really won't change my numbers.

Anyway, I'm doing this detox thing. It's not like the usual detoxes you hear about, because I actually get to eat. Here's what it is..

Wake Up Drink
Drink two 8-ounce glasses of water.
Into 1 glass, squeeze ½ lemon (stimulates digestive juices)
Breakfast (between 7 and 8am)
1 piece fresh fruit (apple, pear, banana, ½ cup pineapple, etc.)
After 15-30 minutes…Eat 1-2 cups of cooked whole grains (amaranth, buckwheat, brown rice, millet, or quinoa- avoid barley, corn, oats, rye and wheat)
To flavor…add 2 tbsp of 100 percent fruit juice or 1 tsp of an oil and butter mix*
Mid-Morning Snack (around 11am)
Sip 1 to 2 cups of the vegetable water left over from steaming lunch and dinner (reheat and season with a dash of salt)
Take 250 mg of Vitamin C powder, mixed with 6 oz of water
Lunch (between 12pm-1pm)
4 cups steamed vegetables
Add olive oil mix, just olive oil, or flaxseed oil as well as garlic, salt, garlic salt, or vegetable salt and fresh herbs like basil, mint, or oregano
3 oz chicken
Afternoon Snack (around 3pm)
Sip 1 to 2 cups of leftover vegetable water.
Take 250 mg of Vitamin C powder, mixed with 6 oz of water
Dinner (6pm-7pm)
4 cups steamed vegetables
Add olive oil mix, just olive oil, flaxseed oil as well as garlic, salt, garlic salt, vegetable salt and fresh herbs like basil, mint, or oregano
Do not eat anything after 7pm, but feel free to drink non-caffeinated tea.
*Combine ¼ cup of extra-virgin olive oil or cold-pressed canola oil and 1 stick of room-temperature butter- use max 3 tsp a day)

The original one had absolutely no protein, had twice as much vitamin C and also had an extra multivitamin in there. Here's why I changed it. First off, it said that if you don't think you can handle such a small amount of protein, add 3 oz of it to lunch (so I added the steamed chicken). The Vitamin C...It can give you some GI problems, so I'd rather not risk it. I take 500 a day now in capsule form so I think I'll be fine. I have to go get that mix tomorrow. Otherwise, I might just take the 500mg capsule once and drink it down with 6 oz of water. As for the extra multivitamin? Honestly, I'm not a big fan of the multivitamin. I like taking Vitamin C, but I'm just not sure about the rest of it and how much I need of it or anything. I'm no expert, so I'd rather not mess around with it.

I'm doing this detox for 3 days (until Thanksgiving). The website recommends 7 days. I know, however, that I will not be doing this for Thanksgiving and I'd actually like to detox a bit before Thanksgiving anyway, because I'm fairly certain that cleansing my body for a few days is going to make me feel great and will encourage me not to eat a lot for the holiday. Also, it will make up for any amount of calories that I went over this weekend (although, I did lose...but whatever...maybe that was an accident).

Hope you all had an awesome week/weekend and I apologize for the mix-up.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

All chemistry and no Dayquil makes Rachel a dull girl.

Lol, okay. Well my day wasn't ALL chemistry, lol. But here's what's going on. I'm committing myself to eating more fruits and veggies, even if it means a few more calories. Today, I ate 12 ounces of pineapple and a huge apple and I feel great. And, in case anyone is wondering, my aforementioned problem is gone now. I didn't get to go on the treadmill today, but I did get on the Wii and burn 113 calories. It told me I lost 3.3 pounds since yesterday, LMAO. What drugs is that thing on and where can I get some?!

Food Journal
1 WW English muffin (41g): 95 calories
1 tbsp peanut butter: 85 calories
1 230 g apple: 120 calories (that was one gigantic apple, lol)
1 coffee: 30 calories
1 can of Progresso Low Sodium Chicken Soup: 180 calories (HOW CRAZY IS THAT? The lowest calorie soup I've found yet and has a bunch of veggies and white meat)
1 bag pop corn: 200 calories
2 Babybel: 100 calories
Soup: 150 calories
12 oz Pineapple: 170 calories
Total: 1130 calories (and I ate A LOT, it seems, today)

Today was a hard day because I woke up, feeling very sick. I prefer not to take Dayquil or Nyquil or anything of the sort unless I absolutely can't live without it. I'm the same with Tylenol and any kind of medicine. If I really need to take it, I will. Otherwise, I try to have Vitamin C and tea, because your body builds up immunity to these kinds of drugs and I'd rather have them work when I really, really need them. So, yup. Gotta get back to chemistry. I'm not confident in my abilities yet and the test is Thursday, oy vey.

Monday, November 15, 2010

A bleh day with an ok end

Well, today was annoying. I felt fat all day. There's no way to sugarcoat that. All day, I felt like the fat girl. I don't know what was up with that. Then, I got home and my Wii told me I'd gained 2.9 pounds since yesterday. Okay, so I know that's not true. I mean, get real...I would have to eat...I don't even know what I would have to eat to gain 2.9 pounds. However, I will say this. Disclaimer: This is probably TMI but I'm doing it anyway. I have not pooped since Friday or Saturday. Can't remember which one. Now, I'm not too worried about this, because it's happened before and it's really not too big a deal. It's been at the most 3 days, which is fine. The frustrating thing about this is that it means I'm not losing anything! And that's really quite annoying.

I've been eating a lot of protein, but I think I'm going to go back to more carbs, because that was working really well for me and I'm not sure I quit at it. I mean, if something works, why change it? If the carbs suddenly stop working, I'll change them. But why change the parts on a well-oiled machine. I ate more carbs today and  I wasn't as ferociously hungry as I have been. I eat whole wheat, so it fills me up. I also think that it will help with my bathroom problem, because fiber makes you go. So we'll see how the end of this week comes. I'm not in this to lose 100 pounds in ten weeks or something crazy, you know? It's trial and error. When something doesn't work, I change it.

So I saw the +2.9, didn't think much of it, started playing my Wii, finished one game and bam. I had tears in my eyes and I had no idea why. So I quickly went upstairs before anyone could notice and bawled my eyes out in the bathroom. I do not even know. I am upset and I am frustrated. I know that I'm drinking a heck load of fluids, but I got on my real scale right after I got on the Wii scale (it was 7:00 so I know that's not my real weight, but it still scared me) and it said 197.8. My jaw dropped. It was probably that, that made me more upset than anything.

Anyway, starting tomorrow, we are back to complex carbs and tons of vegetables and we'll see how the next couple of days go. I'm taking a trip up to my regular school this weekend, so that should be..erm, interesting. I'll try not to drink, but I don't know what I'm going to eat. I have no meal plan, lol. I don't know. I guess we'll see what happens.

Anyway, after my crying episode, I went downstairs back to the Wii and ended up burning 135 calories. Then I walked a mile on the treadmill (slowly, obviously, because of my ankle) for 25 minutes and burned another 113 calories. So that was nice. Um, I don't really know what else to write. I'll just leave it at my food journal.

Food Journal
Oatmeal with banana & peanut butter: 230 calories
Subway sandwich: 280 calories
Whole wheat Wrap with chicken mozarella tomato and spinach: 400 calories
Chicken Soup: 200 calories
Coffee: 30 calories
Total Calories: 1040
Yes, that is a whole lotta carb, but I am feeling satisfied for the first time in days. I need to find an easy balance.
Fluid Intake for the day is 106.8 oz

Sunday, November 14, 2010


DISCLAIMER: Please don't tell me to relax. I don't know how my blogging comes out, but people always seem to think I'm freaking out while I'm writing this. I can be a very neurotic person sometimes. If you need to see me freaking out, go see my blog post about my hair (yeah, it was ridiculous...but that was definitely a freak out). I am not freaking out, I'm a tiny bit disappointed because hell! Who doesn't want to lose? But I'm really not too upset. In fact, I feel better now than I've felt all week.
Well, I got on the scale. 192, exactly. I'm not sure what happened. I would really like to say that I know what I did wrong, because then I could get off my ass and fix it. The problem is that I don't know what I did wrong. Some may blame it on the carbs, but my body has never had a problem with that. In fact, I've replaced a lot of my carbs with protein. I ate lots of eggs and veggies and much less peanut butter and such. I technically ate more calories, but I did not go over 1200, not even close. And then there's all the water I've been drinking. I drank more water than I usually do, but not so much more that I should've retained any. I'm not going to put up my food journal or fluid journal, because it's in my notebook that I left in the car, but I've had 500 calories and 97.3 oz today. About to go eat some dinner, another 300 calories probably, depending on what I eat. I'm in a better mood now than I have been. I've had some family issues going on that I don't really want to blog about, but I'm feeling quite a bit better today, despite some early afternoon douchebaggery. That's all .Going to go study for chemistry some more.

Oh. On a side note, I am sick and tired of people being weird when I tell them I want to be a doctor. One of my best friends thinks it's annoying that I study so much, my brother doesn't think I should be a doctor at all, my sister-in-law thinks I'm too "crafty" to be a doctor. I don't know. And also? I don't care. I'm going to be a doctor. I'm going to be a pediatric surgeon. And anyone that disagrees? It'll be my pleasure to prove them wrong.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Not letting myself lose it

I know I did not do well this week. Subconsciously, I forgot to go on the scale this morning. Because I know I did not do well this week. I ate way too many calories. I can feel it. I can feel if I have a loss. And I can feel if I lose weight, almost always. I'm still nervous but I think "You did well .There was nothing more you could've done. Just relax" and usually I do. And yet, here I am, knowing I didn't do well. I don't think I gained, only because I don't know how that would've happened. It's not like I ate junk food or ate more than 1200 calories. It's not like I sat around and did nothing, it's not like I drank water. But I'm 99.9% certain I didn't lose. I guess we'll see tomorrow morning, huh..

Today, I literally sat at my laptop after half an hour of Wii Fit for some toning, looking at skinny people to keep myself from eating. Right before I ordered sushi, I just stared at skinny people for ten minutes. And then I ordered 2 avocado rolls, which is enough to fill me up and 280 calories, which fits right into my 1000-1200 calorie range for the day. Here are my food and fluid journals.

Food Journal
2 eggs with 15 g white onion, 15 g red pepper, 20 g cucumber, 1 slice low fat American cheese and yellow pepper seasoning with 1 40 cal WW Bread and a cup of hot chocolate: 246 calories
Pelmeni & Sour Cream: 190 calories
1.5 cups vegetable soup: 200 calories
Babybel: 50 calories
2 avocado rolls: 280 calories
Total: 966 calories

Fluid Journal
1 water bottle- 16.9
1 snapple- 16
1 hot chocolate- 11
1 tea- 10
1 diet coke- 12
1 water bottle- 16.9
Total: 82.8 oz (Great, because I'll be up for another 3 hours at least which means I will get at least another bottle of Snapple and another tea in...plus I ate a bunch of soup that I didn't count as fluid)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Physical Therapy, Nails & Birthday Party

So, I went to physical therapy this morning. I got off the bus 20 minutes earlier by accident. And then I walked for 20 minutes, which was ok. A little painful for the ankle, but ok. Then I went to physical therapy, which was good. Then Starbucks. Now I'm here, about to go on the Wii Fit and then get my nails done. Later tonight, I have a birthday party with lots of alcohol and greasy food. I will not eat. I'm eating dinner before and chewing gum and drinking diet soda during. As for alcohol, I'm going to look up some low calorie drinks, take a couple of shots with everyone and leave it at that. Homie don't play with diets. I haven't done all that amazing this week, I don't think, so I refuse to make it even worse tonight.

Food Journal
1 pumpernickel bagel (20 g)- 65 calories
2 egg whites- 32 calories (and a bunch of protein)
1 slice low fat American cheese- 25 calories
Soup- 200 calories
Coffee- 30 calories
Think Thin Bites Bar- 100 calories
Total: 452 calories (4:02pm)

Fluid Journal
1 coffee- 16 oz
1 Snapple- 16 oz
1 water bottle- 16.9 oz
Total: 48.9 oz [I gotta get working on this]

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Really, Really Short

I promise I will catch up on my thankful posts sometime this weekend. It's just not happening for me right now, unfortunately.

Food Journal
1 english muffin- 140
1 tbsp peanut butter- 85
1/2 mini chili banana- 50
1 sugar free smoothie- 80
1 coffee- 30
1 bag of cashews- 180
1 cup vegetable soup- 150 calories
 Thai Salad- 300 calories
Total: 1015 calories (not bad!)

Pretty good for the days. I was almost certain I was going to go over, because I had the longest, hardest day, but I didn't!

Fluid Journal
1 coffee- 16 oz
1 smoothie- 20 oz
1 bottle of Snapple- 16 oz
3 bottles of water- 50.7 oz
Tea- 10 oz
Total: 112.7 oz (I kind of feel like a rock with that fluid intake, lol)

That's all for now. I have to go study for a huge chem exam, so posting might be sparse.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Short Post

Went on the Wii yesterday. Burned 126 calories. Went on the Wii when I woke up this morning. Burned 58 calories. It says I lost 3.5 lbs from last night, LOL. Good thing I don't pay attention to my Wii Weight. Food this morning was good. You can see it below.

What I was thankful for yesterday....(I'm so sorry that I keep messing this up)
I am thankful for indoor plumbing. I know that sounds weird, but not so long ago, we were not all blessed with the wonders of indoor plumbing. If I was drinking 105 oz of water a day and didn't have indoor plumbing....let's just say, my life would be a mess lol.

Food Journal
1/2 everything bagel with stuffing taken out- 80 calories
1 egg white- 16 calories
1 slice cheese- 25 calories
Total: 121 calories

Fluid Journal
10 oz cup of tea
Total: 10 oz (I am going to have a peeing marathon when I really start to ingest water. I need to try to get more in, in the morning)

Also, Allan pointed out yesterday that the animal crackers made up 25% or something of my calories yesterday. That's just wrong. Never again.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Fountain

I am a fountain. I don't stop peeing. Ever. I'm just leaving it at that. I pee a lot, lol.

Here is my food journal and my fluid journal.

Food Journal
1 WW english muffin- 140 cals
2 egg whites- 32 cals (and 8 g of protein!)
Rice pudding- 70 cals
1 tuna salad- 150 cals
1 bag animal crackers- 250 cals
1 pizza- 460 cals
Total: 1102 cals

Fluids Journal
1 bottle Snapple- 16 oz
1 bottle water- 16.9 oz
1 bottle 0 cal Vitamin Water- 20 oz
1 coffee- 16 oz
1 bottle water- 16.9 oz
1 bottle water- 16.9 oz
Total: 102.7 oz (almost there, but I ain't done yet)

The people in my history class must think I'm such a freak. It's a 2.5 hour class and I ran to the bathroom, like, four times. It was a little bit ridiculous. I'm watching The Biggest Loser right now. I love Ada. She is my girl. She is kick ass and I basically want to be her. She is constantly pushing herself harder and harder and harder. And she's had a tough, tough life but she doesn't let it affect her. She plays as hard as the boys and I love that. She reminds me a little bit of Tara from a few seasons ago. Anyway, I'm going to go. Again, I'm not thrilled with my food intake. I ruined it for myself at the end of the day, but I stayed under 1430 and under 1200. And I ate a whole bunch of protein. I watched my carbs a little bit more, but I'm going to make sure to watch even more tomorrow. I loved that tuna salad, though! It was lettuce, tomato, red pepper, green pepper, ranch dressing on the side (which I didn't even touch) and a scoop of tuna. 13g of protein just in the tuna. It was absolutely awesome.

Hope everyone is having a good day.

Hmmmm, Regular Weight Loss or Accelerated Weight Loss

Decisions, decisions.......NOT! Are you kidding? I can drink 89 oz of fluids and eat 1430 calories a day and lose weight. BUT I can drink 105 oz of fluids and eat 1000-1200 calories a day and lose MORE weight. It does not take much brain power to figure out what to do here! SO, 105 oz. of fluids a day. It is ON.

Food Journal
1 WW english muffin- 140 cals
2 egg whites- 32 cals (and 8 g of protein!)
Rice pudding- 70 cals
Total: 242 cals
Time: 12:45 pm

Fluid Journal
1 bottle of Snapple- 16 oz
1 bottle of water- 16.9 oz
1 cup of tea- 8 oz
Total: 40.9 oz
Time: 12:45 pm (time to get to work and drink more)

Monday, November 8, 2010

Physical Therapy is Brutal

Really short update right now, because I seriously have to get to work on school. I went to physical therapy today. 25 minutes on the treadmill at a speed of 1.5, which is sad, but whatever. That's what I'm allowed to do. Today was a very tiring day. I did way more walking than I usually day. I took the bus and train everywhere. I climbed up and down stairs far too much, I had physical therapy where I walked at a slow pace but for 25 minutes straight and I really didn't eat that much. I had 1025 calories, which is still under goal (1430) and I'm still very proud of myself. In my last post, you can find my food journal. I think I did pretty well, other than the Lean Pocket and bar, but honestly, I left my house at 8:00 and didn't get back until almost 7:30. I was exhausted by the time I got back. I ate some Asian salad from yesterday, was still hungry and then ate some more. I think it may have to do with all the walking I did. I wasn't AS ravenous as I was yesterday, but I was absolutely exhausted. I'm going to catch up on some well-deserved sleep tonight and then tomorrow, hopefully, everything will be back to normal and I'll be less hungry again. I've upped my activity by a lot, but I still don't think that's an excuse to be hungry. And I ate plenty of protein today. Egg whites, grilled salmon, banana! That's much more than I've been eating. I'm not ultra-pleased with eating over 1000 calories but what's done is done and I can't beat myself up over it. I can just do better tomorrow. Saturday is still 4 days away. Plenty of times to lose the 2 pounds that I need to lose. Fluid intake was good. I think I got to 100 oz, so I've got one oz to go until I have to stop, lol. Alrighty, that's it. Hope everyone's having a good day.

Ahhhh! Oh no, I forgot to do what I'm thankful for. This is going to be a fast one, as I'm off to school. Yesterday, I was thankful for my weight loss so far. It may not be much, but it is already giving me confidence that I've never had before. I know I have a ways to go, but just knowing that I'm already 30 pounds lighter than the last time I was up at school makes me extremely happy and I feel like I can focus on something except for how fat I look, as I go about my day.

40 Protein & Friends

I realized today that I have 40 followers. The fact that 40 people read (or don't read, but were interested enough to start following, whatever) is seriously amazing to me. Thanks, guys. I feel the love! I'm going to post up a little questionnaire later for my followers, because I want to get to know you!

I hear you on the protein! I am listening and I am trying! Protein is a little bit harder to get in the morning, but yesterday was OD on the carbs, so I just need to either get up earlier or find a way to do it the night before. So thanks to everyone.

So, last night, A, M and I (I as in me, lol) decided to go to breakfast for this morning...at 8AM. Of course, I know my friends, so we didn't have breakfast until around 9, but that didn't matter. M is going back to school today and I am soooo sad about it, but it'll be okay. A and I decided that we were going to have breakfast once a week from now on, because it wakes us up and it's just so nice to start off the week seeing my best friends. At breakfast, I had two coffees, an egg white omelette with grilled salmon and a whole bunch of veggies. I am going to say that the entire meal totaled to 400 calories, which is totally fine with me, because I'm so full that I am not eating until dinner lol. BTW, egg whites and grilled salmon? How's that for protein?

About to go off to my physical therapist after I print some stuff for my next class. I'll post again tonight. Have a good day, everyone!

Food Journal
Breakfast- 400 calories
Banana- 105 calories
Lean Pocket- 250 calories
Salad- 150 calories
Coffee- 20 calories
Bar- 100 calories
Total: 1025 calories (still on track! The most I'm allowed is 1430)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 14, Double Dog Dare Challenge

Last night, at 1:30AM, M's boyfriend, A (who I used to strongly dislike), called me sounding like he was very upset and asking if he could come over. I knew they were having problems and he had called me before to talk, but I was busy, so I felt guilty as all hell and told him to come on over. I got semi-dressed, came outside and there was M! She'd come to surprise me and used A as bait. It was so great. I was so happy to see her. It sucks that we go to school in 2 very different places and have very limited time with one another over the year and now she's thinking of staying at school during the summer. To which I say, I need me a car to go visit her. She's been my best friend since the 6th grade and we've gone to the same school up until now, so we miss each other a whole lot.

I thought very hard and long about not posting my food intake today, because for some reason, I have been absolutely ravenous. Now, some might blame it on the carbs for breakfast, but I have those almost every day, so I really don't believe that's it. I had a good amount of fruits and veggies, but even as we sit here, I'm just thinking about what else I can eat. And nothing seems to work to pull me out of it. I think I need to go exercise on the Wii, but even thinking about that makes me want to eat. Ugh, I don't know what is going on. I feel like I just need to go to sleep and wake up to a day when I can freely ingest more calories lol. So here goes nothing...

Food Journal
1 english muffin- 140 calories
2/3 tbs peanut butter- 80 calories
1 Oreo- 55 calories
Gum- 5 calories
Snack Wrap- 260 calories
Asian Thai Salad (from eatbetteramerica.com)- 250 calories
1 cup peanut butter cereal- 110 calories
2 pieces chocolate- 100 calories
Total: 1000 calories
AND I'M STILL HUNGRY. WTF. I've already exceeded the amount that I eat. And I have drank almost 6 bottles of water today, too. I don't know. I just don't know.

I need to buckle down and my brain is saying "Yes, yes, just buckle down. Come on. You can't eat anymore today. You've already eaten quite a lot" and my body is saying "FEED MEEE" Little Shop of Horrors Style. The Asian Thai Salad should've been so filling. It had sooo many veggies- carrots, red peppers, cucumbers, onions. And this yummy sauce. And even the snack wrap, which I had with grilled chicken, which is terrible for me, had lettuce and tomatoes. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. I'm about to go down more water so that I don't eat. Ugh.

Actually, I just remembered something that I wanted to blog about and I think the beast in my stomach has finally been shot down. I went to work today and it was hard, I mean kids were screaming, being annoying, etc. My throat actually hurts from trying to scream over them to get their attention. (Note: I try not to yell at them unless they're not being safe, but I do yell over them, because otherwise, they would never hear me)

So, at work, I was told by two new people that I had lost weight. My little sister (we kind of have a big sis/little sis program, but it's pretty informal) told me that I looked soo different and that she was really proud of me. And then my former boss, who is usually annoying as all hell, literally said "Holy crap, Raych. What the hell have you been doing?" I mean, he proceeded to attempt to feed me pizza, which obviously didn't work, but it was nice nonetheless. People are noticing. The numbers are coming off and even though I don't see it, other people do. I've definitely got a ways to go and I'm nowhere near the weight I want to be, but there is a change already and I can't let myself get down about the weight I've lost so far. I have to keep going.

With that, this is my last day of the "Double Dog Dare Challenge" and I must say, I've learned a lot. At my weight, my goal for water should be at around 101 oz. That's the biggest thing I've learned. So, I have signed up for the Son of the Challenge! Apparently, we will all be drowning in water, or the way I see it, we will all be drowning in urine. I feel better after posting this, because I think it's rearranged my priorities. Thank goodness I stopped at 1000 calories and now I'm done. Because, the way I was going, this day could've gone WAY downhill just now.

Hope you all had a good weekend. Get ready for some Monday!

What I am thankful for, day 7
Today, I am thankful for books. As a kid, I had many ideals instilled into me and I think that one of the most important ones was a love for reading. I was taken to the library almost every week. I feel like I lived at that library. I read almost every book in the kid's section and then moved onto the young adult's section. I felt like a kid in a candy store, except I was a kid in a library. Just running my fingers over the shiny covers and the rough exteriors of some of the books was enough to get my blood pumping. Like music, books helped me get through a lot. I escape into different worlds when I read. It's like everything around me fades out and I'm somewhere else, someone else. Reading is what I believe has made me an educated and well-rounded person. And even now, if I need to know something, I try to find a book that will give me the information, because I know that the book can be a magical tool. All you have to do is pick it up.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Day 13, Double Dog Dare Challenge, part 2

Today was HECTIC. I went on the Wii Fit with a goal of burning 210 calories. Burned 249 by accident. Not complaining. Then, we went to Century 21. There, I bought a jacket (XL- I tried on an L and it zipped and was fine, but I hate when my jackets aren't super super comfortable, so I opted for the larger) and a pair of jeans at a size 32, which after much confusion and research, I believe translates into a size 12, which would be AWESOME. After that, we went to Whole Foods, where I spent forever.

Food Journal, cont.
Breakfast- 240 calories
Chicken, 6 oz: 180 calories
Brown Rice, 1 serving: 150 calories
6 cherry tomatoes: 20 calories
Tomato Soup from Whole Foods: 110 calories
1 english muffin: 140 calories
1 tbsp peanut butter: 85 calories
10 g red banana: 15 calories
Total: 940 calories

Much healthier today, so I'm pretty pleased. I didn't get to cook my recipe, but maybe tomorrow! Other than that, here is my goals update and my thankful post :)

1. Lose 10 pounds (leaving me at 186.6 lbs.) by Tuesday, November 30th. 
November 6th: 192.2 lbs (-4.4)
2. Burn 500 calories a week on the Wii Fit. 
Week 1: 540 calories - woot!
11/01- 120 calories
11/03- 171 calories
11/06- 249 calories
3. Take a 10 minute walk 3 times a week. 
11/02- 10 minutes to the polls; 10 minutes to Subway
11/05- A crap load of walking to, at and from BHS.
:4. Lose the limp! 
Week 1: I'm doing pretty well, I suppose. I still limp a little bit when I've walked a lot and my ankle gets super tired. But overall, I'm doing better.
5. Blog at least 6 times a week. I was talking to my mom today and I don't know why this time's diet is working and I have no issues staying on plan, whereas it's never happened before. I think it's a good mix of things and one of the things in the mix is blogging.
Week 1: 1. 11/01, 2. 11/01, 3. 11/02, 4. 11/02, 5. 11/03, 6. 11/03, 7. 11/04, 8. 11/05, 9. 11/06, 10. 11/06
6. Fit into "the dress" 
Tried it on today. Still no luck. But I've got another 3 weeks ahead of me, I think!7. Get my damn room clean. 
Not yet....Hopefully next week, I will have a little bit more time. At the very least, next weekend, I will spend cleaning.

What I am thankful for, day 6
Today, I am thankful for my doggy. His name is Mickey and he's a yellow lab and I can't believe I've never posted a picture of this adorable creature.

He may be a glutton and he may let out drool every single time I have a piece of chicken (or for that matter, a piece of anything in my hand), but he runs at me every time I walk in the house, sleeps in my bed when I go away for college, loves to cuddle and just unconditionally loves everyone. I also know that he's extremely protective of the family and living in Brooklyn, it helps me sleep at night. I love my Mickey and am thankful that at least one creature that I know of is without hate....well, except for cats. But I suppose he can't help that :)

Day 13 Double Dog Dare Challenge- WEIGH IN

I can't type up a long post right now, because I have a lot of stuff I need to get accomplished, BUT I weighed in this morning....192.2!!! That is 4.4 lbs lost since last week! I am so close to the 180's (a place I don't think I have been since junior high school), I can taste it. I can hardly contain myself, lol. Look for a second post sometime tonight :)

I am also taking this little weigh-in day setup from Whitney who is a huge inspiration to me in many ways. Check out her blogs! Her journey is wonderful.
Starting Weight: 220 lbs.
Last Week's Weight: 196.6 lbs.
This Week's Weight: 192.2 lbs.

Food Journal
2 eggs- 140 calories 
160 g honeydew melon- 60 calories
1 slice WW bread- 40 calories
Total: 240 calories
Much healthier breakfast than usual, don't you think?

Friday, November 5, 2010

Day 12 Double Dog Dare Challenge

Thank you for all your wonderful, wonderful comments! Knowing that you guys are reading keeps me that much more motivated every day!

Food Journal
1 roll challah: 264 calories
1 tbsp peanut butter: 85 calories (once again, I was running very, very late and on very little sleep so I just grabbed something. I need to start watching this. It hasn't hurt me yet, but I think it could. NEED EGGS, lol)
1 Lean Pocket: 250 calories
1 coffee: 25 calories
1 bag pop corn: 300 calories
Total: 924 calories
Water: 67.6 oz

Honestly, I stayed under calories, but I just wasn't very healthy so I'm feeling a little blehh. Today was a very weird day, which I think had to do with my eating. I woke up at 10 after going to sleep at 5AM again for the second time this week (I miss my best friend and the only time we're both able to talk is at night and we tend to overdo it). Then, I had to get over by 11 to my acupuncturist, so I didn't have any breakfast. I just grabbed a water bottle and ran. At my acupuncturist's, she came in, we talked a little and I lay down to get my treatment. I fell asleep for the hour and a half that I was getting treatment. How sad, lol. I was so exhausted. But I felt better after that.

Then, I got home, ate breakfast really quickly and ran out of my house yet again to the Brooklyn Historical Society in the cutest neighborhood in Brooklyn. My professor's exhibit was there, so we got in for free. He interviewed 8 Vietnam War veterans and the exhibit was basically a huge almost life-size picture of them and then you stood under a speaker and it felt as if they were speaking to you. And next to the photos was a glass case filled with memorabilia, letters home that you could read photocopies of in a binder next to them, medals and other things relevant to them. It was absolutely wonderful. Then, I got home and ate my Lean Pocket. It was a LONG train ride there but a slightly shorter one back. By then, it was 5:30 and I was absolutely starving so I ate a Lean Pocket and then later, as I was watching a movie, I got some light butter pop corn. I've really got to have a better day tomorrow. Technically, I did fine in calories. But I had only a tiny bit of dairy, a little bit of protein and mostly processed food. So I'm unhappy with that, but tomorrow is a better day.

Water intake was good. I was running around all day, so it was easy. I got in my last ten minutes! Tomorrow, my plans are to clean a little bit, do the Wii and make this dish: http://www.eatbetteramerica.com/recipes/30-minutes-or-less/veggie-thai-noodle-salad.aspx

And tomorrow, I have my weigh-in. I'm nervous, as usual, because I feel like I never know what's going to happen come Saturday morning. We shall see. But for now, I am getting to bed, because I want to be able to get up at 9 or 10 and not feel like absolute fresh hell. Gonna catch up on blogging world and then sleep!

What I'm thankful for, day 5
Today, I am thankful for whatever instilled in me the hope that I have carried with me my entire life. I can be pessimistic sometimes, but I always have at least a glimmer of hope. I have never been able to just give up on something. I may not always get what I want and it may be dangerous for me, but I never lose hope completely. You know, my friends get tired of life and say they just want a permanent vacation and are shocked that I don't feel the same way, because I'm pre-med. My life is hard and complicated. But on bad days, I have hope for better ones. And every day, I have hope that I have the strength to get through this journey of weight loss. I have hope that I'm picking the right career. I have hope that I'll make it through medical school. Although I know there are many that have it worse than me, I haven't always been very lucky in life, especially when it comes to matters of the heart. Actually, I've never been lucky in matters of the heart. The one boy that I thought I was lucky with just wanted to get lucky, so that ended with disappointment on both sides. But I have hope that I will find a person one day that is going to love me and adore me for me and that I will feel the same way about them. I have hope and I really believe that it will happen one day. And I think it's that hope that keeps me strong. So, whatever gave me that hope, thanks.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Day 11 Double Dog Dare Challenge

Food Journal
1/4 cup granola (4 g protein): 120 calories
1/2 cup multigrain cheerios (1 g protein): 55 calories
Gum: 5 calories
Coffee: 30 calories
Guinness: 100 calories
1.5 Israeli meat-filled pirozhki: 200 calories
1/2 cup brown rice: 150 calories
Chicken Parm: 260 calories
Total: 920 calories
Time: 8:23pm

Pretty good eating day today, except until 5:30, the last thing that I had was the Guinness. The rest came after 5:30. But that's fine. I got in my calories. I did A LOT of walking today. It was just a busy day in general, honestly. Here's how it went. Couldn't fall asleep last night and finally got to sleep at around 2. Woke up at 7 and had no time for anything at all in the morning. Tried to find time to make an egg but I had to be at school at 8 so I had a half hour to get up, shower, get dressed, feed the dog, feed myself and run out. So, instead I ate the first thing above and got 5 g of protein in, which isn't enough, but I kept it in mind and did my best! Tomorrow, I don't have to go anywhere until 11 so I will have eggs tomorrow.

So I got to recitation and we had no quiz, which was awesome. Then I got to lab and she gave us last week's quizzes back. I got an 8 on the regular quiz and a NINE on the lab quiz that she said no one does well on. She told me that I had the best grade in the entire class. I was really proud, especially because she said that no one does that well :) Then, we went to lab and my lab partner, P and I are an awesome team. So we crystallized some aspirin and then went to the library. P fell asleep, but eventually we got up and went to Hillel for an interview and an event.

My interview was a minute long, I gave them my 300 dollars and I'm officially off to Orlando on January 2nd! Then, I played backgammon with the president of Hillel! He beat me, lol. But not by much. Then, we went to an event at Hillel which turned into a big hate-fest between pro-Israel and pro-Palestine (whatever that is). I mean, everyone has a right to their opinion. But saying that Israel is actually Palestine...Well, I mean, it's just factually untrue. The pro-Palestine side kept saying how the Israelis are bombing them and making their lives a  living hell. No matter that the Arabs pushed the Israelis out of Gaza and 85% of them are still living in temporary housing. I see their argument, I see their point of view. But for some reasons they absolutely refuse to see our side. I don't know what it is. They don't want peace. They want power. And that disgusts me. Not all of them. But the ones that were at the meeting. Whatever, I'm getting riled up just typing it.

Then I went to class and after that I went to Applebee's with P and some others from Hillel. It was Happy Hour and they didn't card me! So I had a little bit of beer and let the boys chug the rest. That's all. Then I went to Starbucks, got some tea and talked to this boy. Then, my mom picked me up, I got a mani-pedi, I made dinner and Grey's Anatomy is on in six minutes!

Water intake is good, btw. Gonna go on the Wii Fit after Grey's Anatomy!

What I'm thankful for, day 4
This might be a strange one, but I am so thankful for music. I have gotten through my toughest times with my headphones on blast in my ears. All sorts of music has gotten me through all sorts of things. I can always find a song to fit my mood. Whether it's classical, show tunes, Ingrid Michaelson or rap, I know that I can turn to music no matter what. It's a never-ending art. People will, I hope, never stop creating more music to live to. I don't just dance and listen to music. I live to it. Different songs remind me of different parts of my life. I just love it and I'm so thankful that it has and always will be there for me.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Day 10, Double Dog Dare Challenge: Part 2

Food Journal
2 waffles- 140 calories
1 tbsp peanut butter- 85 calories
1 gum: 5 calories
1 coffee: 30 calories
1 medium green apple: 36 calories
1 cup chicken pelmeni:180 calories
1 tsp of sour cream: 13 calories
Gnu Bar: 140 calories (I seriously needed energy after 35 minutes of Wii Fiting)
Total: 629 calories
Time: 7:40pm (by the time the last dish is done cooking and I've finished eating it, it'll probably be around 6:30)

If I don't say it enough (which I don't), thank you for all your wonderful comments! They really, really mean a lot to me. Today was an overall okay day. I did a bit of ballet in physical therapy. It's so frustrating that my ankle won't let me bend and plie correctly. I know I need to take it easy, so I don't push it too much, but it is seriously frustrating. And my balance is just horrible. No pt on Friday because the receptionist still hasn't gotten me authorized for more sessions. Hopefully I'll be able to go on Monday (fingers crossed), because I really need it.

I don't know why I ate so little. I'm really not upset that I haven't lost any weight since Saturday. I mean, it's been half a week, lol. I'm not not eating (oh, double negatives). I just really wasn't hungry at all. But maybe I'll be hungry after I get on the Wii Fit. I've still got over 400 calories to burn by Saturday night and I'm gonna have to walk for 10 more minutes to get to my goal of half an hour a week. I know physical therapy burns calories because I sweat like a maniac and I'm always exhausted after, but I'm not counting it, because I have no idea how many calories it burns. All I know is it can't hurt to do more exercise. 

Still guzzling water today. Like I said, I'm sticking it out through the challenge. Emailed back and forth with Allan today. I'm still not sure I agree with him on some things when it comes to that, but he has been very respectful of my opinions and questions. He pointed out that I'm not having protein for breakfast, which I am fixing starting tomorrow. I'm going to definitely talk to my doctor when I see her on Friday at 11 and ask what she thinks about the whole water situation. I trust her (as she's given me good tips and helped me lose 20 something pounds already) a lot more than I trust the online doctors. She knows my body better than the online doctors, obviously lol.

Okay, food is done. Off to eat and then do some Wii Fitness! I'll let you all know how many calories I burn. Oh! And I'll have a separate post for my 'thankful' challenge. Hope you all are having a great day :)

EDIT------I'm just going to finish off in the same post so whoever is reading doesn't have to run around on 3 different posts.

7:40pm I went on the Wii and according to it, I am down 1.8 pounds. I don't know if that's true or not, because I don't know how accurate it is. I try to wear the same thing every time I do it and just put -4 lbs because I wear sneakers and thick pants. I'll just wear the same exact outfit every time. Burned 171 calories in 35 minutes. Heel is hurting, but that's ok...it's not my ankle.

What I am thankful for, day 3
Today, I am thankful for all the wonderful doctors that I have seen in my life. When I was a child, I was extremely sick. I had chronic bronchitis, pneumonia, bronchial pneumonia, stomach flu, regular flu. I think at some point I had heart problems. I have chronic ear infections, I'm pretty sure I had the swine flu last year. I twisted my wrist last semester dancing, I broke my finger in the 5th grade and I broke my ankle just now. I have no idea where I would be right now if it weren't for great doctors. My pediatrician is also a friend of my parents and he has cured almost anything that I've had. He's always tried to help me out with my weight, but he's not a nutritionist and there was only so much he could say to me. He's advised me on anything and everything and he never got impatient with me when I was little and was afraid of getting blood taken from my finger (Now, I hardly even feel needles). My orthopedic doctor managed to get me through a bimalleolar fracture (a really terrible one, at that) without surgery. I have an ENT doctor that can clear any ear infection within a week. The people at my school's health services helped me out with my twisted wrist. My acupuncturist can fix almost any pain or ache with a needle. These people gave me my health and I am very thankful for them.