Monday, January 24, 2011

First few days back at school

I've been having a good first few days back, but my scale tells me that I am now 188, which is unacceptable. I'm thinking that this is a different scale and that I may be 186 or something, but I'm just going to leave it alone and work until I'm back down to 183.2 and start up from there again. It's only fair, since I've switched scales.

This morning, I ate a serving of eggs, a hard boiled egg (no yolk), 1/3 cup of pineapple, 2 squares of melon and some onion potatoes. I drank 16 oz. of water and then 16 oz. of coffee with soy milk. So far, so good. I plan on having a snack at around 2:30, then dinner at around 6-ish. My snack will most likely be a banana with a tablespoon of yummy peanut butter.

Today, I had biology from 10:50-11:50. Later, I have history from 1:10-2:10 and then chemistry from 2:20-3:20. I wish I could switch those two because I'm more likely to still be lively for history, but I plan on having my energizer snack during my ten minute break in between classes, so I should be fine, yeah?

After that class, I'm going to go to my room, change and then go to the gym for an hour and a half. After that is dinner, which will probably be a whole wheat wrap and a salad. And then it's off to ballroom dance GIMs (General Interest Meeting) to scope out a new partner. Tryouts are this weekend. Also this weekend are RA interviews, so hopefully I can get one of those. I'm having a busy week, but the good thing about this is that I'm moving a lot and eating a little. It's only for the best. I may post again later. I've been really hitting my mark with fluids the past few days, which I'm very proud of and now I'm going to get some activity in there. It feels so good to be back on track!!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Back on track.....

So, I'm back at school and with that, I'm back on track. Got up this morning at around 10:30, to a text from my old roommate asking me to come to breakfast. I love seeing her, so I got my butt up and we went. I have to guesstimate calories because I'm not making my own food, which means I'll have to experiment with my daily calorie allotment. So, for breakfast, I had..

1 slice WW bread (even though there were 2 on my plate, I didn't touch the other one...very proud): 75 calories
2 egg whites: 30 calories
1 slice American Cheese: 95 calories (note to self: no more cheese)
1 cup pineapple, diced: 100 calories
16 oz. of water
16 oz. tea with Splenda
So far: 300 calories, 32 oz. of water
Time: 12:30pm

So, I'm giving myself 900 more calories to spend and a goal of drinking 120 oz of fluids today. 88 more oz to go!

The gym here is under construction, so there's only a tiny room with some exercise machines for 10,000 or so students? I'm going to get to the gym at some point anyway, but I will really have to get creative this semester. It's freezing outside, but I may go for a run later. If not, I'll do an exercise DVD from Netflix.


Slacking is not the word for what I've been doing. Starting right now, into tomorrow morning, I'm writing everything down again and blogging again. I don't think I've gained any weight (I don't know, because my scale says 185 but it's a different scale in a different city, so I'll just have to use this one as my measure from now on), but I haven't been very healthy. Now that I'm back in school and I'm going to be falling into some kind of routine, I have to get back to being healthy and really losing some weight. Because while I don't feel I've gained, there is no way I've lost and that's just not okay.

So here's to coming back from a serious slump and not starting over, but picking up right where I left off.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Weigh-In Results and Some Thoughts

Starting Weight: 220
Last Week's Weight: 184.2
This Week's Weight: 183.2

A 1 lb. loss! That is actually absolutely amazing. I cheated so much. Now, I know this is not a cue for me to start eating everything in sight and eating a lot, because I still wasn't healthy so it still wasn't good. But I am very glad that I lost a pound.

I had a good day back, but I am very sad about not seeing all of my new friends and the new boy that is in my life. He's 5 years older than me and doesn't have a cell phone or a facebook, but this boy sends me the sweetest emails. He's still in Florida, but he's coming back on Thursday, so I'm really looking forward to hopefully seeing him before I go back to school. The more we e-mail one another, the more I am interested in him. I can't say I like him, but I have more hope in a possible relationship with him than I have since my junior year of high school. And that was quite a while ago.

So, I'm having withdrawal from all my friends and also my best friends, one of whom is in India and one of whom is in Israel. One of them comes back January 14th, the other comes back January 17th and I miss them so much. But I will survive. I have to go shopping because of my nephew's birthday this weekend. Soooo sad, lol. Just kidding. I'm very excited to go dress shopping. And I'm glad I have an excuse.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Back from Florida!

I am finally back. I failed at blogging while I was there because I was SO SO SO busy. I can't even describe how incredible the trip was. Everyone kept saying how we were the kid's heroes. But honestly, those kids are my heroes. They know they are dying and they are constantly smiling and laughing and playing.

I think we've lost that magic...that hope that everything will be okay and that will to live. And that is a resolution I am making for the new year. Be more like a kid.

I had a great trip overall. I met a boy, I made PLENTY of new friends. I'm having withdrawal symptoms from the group, though. My bed feels very empty and I'm very bored.

Eating-wise...well....I did my best with what I had, you know? I can't say that I didn't cheat, because boy, DID I. But I'm back home and my priorities are set straight. I haven't gotten on the scale yet, but I am not nervous. I did what I did and all I can do now is learn from my mistake. I also walked a lot, so hopefully, that will help me. I'm going to downstairs and eat, because I haven't really done any of that today, due to the fact that I needed a 7 and a half hour nap (which is more sleep than I got ANY night on the trip, lol). Hope all is well with everyone. After my food, I'm going to go back upstairs and catch up on some blogs.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Off to the airport in 8 hours.

I've got a 6:55AM flight, which means I have to be at the airport at 5AM. Not exciting. I hope everyone had a good new year. Mine was good. I spent it with the family. I ate a lot at the party, but I didn't really eat at all before, so that wasn't a big deal. I've spent this entire day watching Skins and packing. I hate packing, but I LOVE Skins, lol.

So in case I didn't mention it before, I'm going to Florida to this place called "Give Kids the World" which is a place where children with terminal illnesses can go for free with their families, just for a week of fun to forget about everything. I'm going to volunteer there, with a group of strangers. Honestly, I'm not too nervous about eating, because I'm too shy to overeat in front of strangers. I'm going for a week, so for at least the first four or five days, my eating will be fine. I really don't eat that much, unless I'm alone, so note to self: don't be alone, lol.

Anyway, gotta go pack now. Can't do too much update. I am bringing my laptop to Florida with me, so if I have any extra time there, I will update. Have a good week, everyone.